Saturday, September 12, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Sept 12, 2009

Hi all!
I hope this finds you chipper and in good spirits! Love all of ya that has dropped by. You may not have left any comments but I know you was here. Thank you ! I really appreciate it!
What is happening on the homefront you say? War, war, and more war. Resist the devil and he will flee right? Mean to say, we are on the warfront everyday. The devil attacks us more and more because we are our Father's chosen. He attacks us because we are doing our Father's work, we are love by Him, we find no fault in Him, and we have taken over the devil's job as worshipper in the kingdom. The devil is jealous and seeks to bring us down, to make us seem unimportant in God's eyes, but it will never be. I believe my family is on the front lines. We are anointed to praise God and battle the devil to keep him away from the unsaved until they can be saved, accepting Jesus into their lives. So I know the devil attacks us because he is fearful of God's creation. This is what it means to resist the devil, to battle anything he can throw at us. To defeat his strengths and leave him demoralized!!! As a friend of mine says almost every choir practice and day he sings, "Stomp on the devil's head, uh!"
Well, I have sung quite a bit now. It still sounds funny hearing my voice now. I have some cracking at the top end of my range. Even at the middle and low, my voice sounds as if I am a tenor/baritone at times. When I am able to hit some highs, it sounds sharp. At times my breathing is unsteady and it tells in my voice at times. I gotta tell you though, it is 1000 times better than it was though. There were times I couldn't even make any kind of sound or note. So I will be thankful for the little things. Of course I am highly critical of myself. Each time I sing I expect every note to be perfect, which is a good thing. Expectation is good! But it can be bad in a way as well. It is easy to get down on myself when each note is not perfect up to my expections. I still have to build strength in my vocal cords to withstand singing for any duration and for hitting notes. I can tell also I need more work on my tone. I wish I had a pitchpipe right now so that I could. I will one day soon. Can you tell I am serious about this thing y'all?
Overall am I pleased? Let's see. I will have to answer............Yes, yes I am. Yet I still know I have to be careful. Being not completely healed yet, I can tell. You know at times, I can still feel a little pain, a twinge of pain. I would love to get another scopy of my throat just to keep tabs on my throat. Maybe sometime in the future but not now.
Today was interesting though. When I sung, I sounded and it felt like I was under water almost like I was gargling. Not sure if that is because I am backing off my reflux medicine or what. The doc wants me to start backing off the medications and eventually stop. He says that type of medication is not suppose to be taken for the rest of your life. He says eventually your body will start producing too much mucus to compensate for the muscus stopped by the medicine. It kinda makes sense. The human body is wonderful at adapting to anything. Well gotta listen to this song for tomorrow. C ya and thanks for listening! As always keep your family close and God even closer. I am not leaving anything this time. Just a lil change of pace mind you. lololol Bye now!!!!!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

LIfe after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Sept 5, 2009

Hi All,
Okay Okay!!! Get off my back!! I know it has been a minute since I have been up here blogging! Give a guy a break!!! loloooll Seriously I was just waiting until I had enough to put up here. I will give you a quick rundown. I have been singing with both the male chorus, mass choir, and ensemble. My voice has been a little tired but that is due to the increase in activity I think. When it gets tired, I sound as if I have a lot of mucus in my throat that won't go away. There still are some notes I cannot hit yet though and that frustrates me. I did sing a solo for the male chorus, um, what was that.., oh yeah, God will deliver by the Williams Brothers. I was doing one of the leads. Started out Melvin's lead but switched over to Doug's adlibs. I was so excited that I messed up a bit on a verse(scripture) but straightened out afterwards. I am not naturally singing right now meaning I am thinking about breathing correctly with the proper attack, during the verse and everything trying hard not to put too much pressure on my throat. I am thinking about the words and such. If you think I am a lil fearful of hurting my vocal cords you are right. I try to trust that I am doing my exercises correctly and singing correctly but everytime I feel a twinge or my vocal cords feel dry, that fear comes back. I don't want to have that surgery ever again!!! Most said I did well on the song and the lil squeaks I heard, no one else heard, because there wasn't any. I have seen and heard the dvd. I still have some work to do, lots of it as far as I am concerned. All say my voice has changed for the better. My singing voice isn't the same as before the surgery. I guess I don't know if the voice I have now is God ordained or I am to return to my former voice. I don't know. But God is good and that is a big important but!!! A good but!!!! Well, gotta get ready for the marriage enrichment class. See ya and as always Keep your family and loved ones close and God even closer. And as always here's a little something at the end for you to marinate over. C ya!

Spiritual SoldiersJothany Blackwood
"Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes…" Ephesians 6:11-17
One of the realities we all come to is that sometimes we are in the right fight but with the wrong people. We believe we are really at odds with a co-worker, another church member, or even the person we are in a relationship with. But when we come to the realization that it’s not the individual we struggle against, but the spirit that is controlling them we can shift our approach.
When we focus on it being the person, then we fight them in the flesh where we can never have victory. Because the enemy is masterful at things of the flesh it’s an uneven match. You can’t bring a knife to a gunfight and that’s what you do when you think you’ll give that person back what they are giving to you.
But when you understand that you are dealing with the rulers of darkness that are strategic in their assignments to destroy and kill you, then we have to know what weapons to fight with and protect ourselves. The fact that they rule in darkness indicates that they cannot handle the light. And the light is the Word of God, which is why Psalm 119:105 says “Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.”
When the Scripture acknowledges that there is wickedness in high places that tells you that the enemy does have power. So it would be unwise to believe you can face such a formidable foe on your own strength. Your strength will come from the Word of God and He prepares us strategically for being spiritual soldiers.
God clearly directs us on how to protect ourselves, yet rather than put on the belt of truth, many of us are spiritually sagging. You can’t be prepared to defend yourself from the world when everything about you reflects the world. And as we guard our chest, we are really being protective of what is placed in our hearts for there we find the seat of our conduct and character. And character is simply what you will do when you believe no one is watching.
Then He tells us that our feet should be fitted in Christian cleats so we can hold our ground, despite the elements that seek to make us lose our footing. And that shield of defense against the advances of others is surely made from the promises of God.
The enemy is relentless and if he can defeat us on the battlefield of our minds, our flesh will easily follow. But we must be clear that the fight is not physical, it’s not against the person in front of us; it’s one of spirit and in that we have the confidence that we have already been given victory. But we can delay or forfeit the promised end when we do not rely on God’s strength.
We have all been prepared for these ceaseless battles and as spiritual soldiers, we should be tireless in working towards hearing “'Well done, good and faithful servant!”