Sunday, May 31, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi All, haven't been here for a bit. Busy, busy, busy! Well, what has been going on since the last I have talked? Well, I can tell you my voice is getting stronger. My speaking voice that is. I can tell it. I still have a tendency to go hoarse some when I try to speak above alot of background noise. Soooo I have a tendency to keep my mouth shut. (smile) I am still not yelling. If you call me from a distance, I will come to you versus answering you loudly. That may stick with me even after my voice is fully healed talking and singing wise. Been doing my exercises except been modifying them to fit the day. Instead of doing them all at one time, I may to 1 or 2 of them at a time. Seems to work. Not sure if that is what my VT Dana would truly want me to do, but I am just trying to adapt. I believe she would want to see me do something if only a little bit. Went to a funeral yesterday. My brother William's uncle passed on. Sad for him I could tell. He said it was a little easier. He has had quite a few family members pass on over the course of a few years. I sat in the choir stand because he has a big family. I was a little nervous. Remember I feel kinda bad not being up there singing with my group. But you know what? It let me know how much I missed it. It was fun. Had a chance to observe some things like people moving in too many directions and not together. lololol But it was fun. Still, I had to keep my mouth shut. Almost, I mean almost, let out a note. lolololol Now today we have church and again I will be sitting in the audience. I have one more vocal therapy session this week in which she will have me singing a song. Do I take a chance on singing early this morning, I mean like the morning hymn or do I wait? I kinda want to know what I would sound like at this point but I don't want to go against orders or risk scarring of any kind. Oops! I think I just answered that question. I won't sing until it is time. So another day of keeping my mouth shut from singing. Easier to be obedient now due to having to stay quiet for so long. They say it takes 21 days to form a habit. I got that beat. lololol Bye all, C ya, arividerci, au revoir, Au tout te ler, until next time

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi All!
Been a lil slack lately keeping up with my blog. 2 days is a long time. Today, found myself talking a bit more than usual. Found myself getting hoarse sooner today also. Wasn't a good feeling. Still finding cell phone use to be hard. I never realized all the background noise that gets amplified while using a cell. Having to talk over the the noise is difficult right now. Tried to do some of my vocal exercises. Gave up, got discouraged. My throat is too tired to do them tonight. Just did a few lip trills. Even they were difficult. Hopefully tomorrow I will do better. Can't lose sight of my goal. Something weird happened. I ate dinner. Everything seemed fine. Then I noticed when I swallowed it felt like there were some loose stitches or something in my throat. I had difficulty swallowing. This couldn't be possible I am thinking. I don't know if they did the dissolvable stitches or what but I wouldn't think I would be able to feel anything like that. I ate some bread, drank some liquids to try to get over it. Right now, things feel okay. Kinda scared me though. Well, just wanted to keep you all in the loop. Take care, God bless, use the love of God as your base. Bye now!

Monday, May 25, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 25, 2009
Hi All!
Well, another day passing away. Kinda overdid it today some. Some clients required more talking to to get things right, cell phone use was getting out of hand, not to mention talking at the dealership over all that machine noise. So when I got home, I was a little gurgly, plus my head was hurting from the strain. Had to take some medication and chill for a while. The absolutely tasty salmon and rice with peas my wife cooked sure helped ease the pain, let me tell you. Then I went to practice my vocal exercises. They were difficulty. My vocal cords still don't have the snap yet, but they will. The exercises leave me sweating, lololol. These exercises I did today were on a cd made for me. Singing from high to low, low to high using the "ol" sound thru pursed lips. Kinda sounds like a plan taking off. lolol. Sustaining the "e" sound for a long as possible, then using the "ol" sound up the scale c, d,e,f, and g. All these exercises were to be performed twice, 2 times a day. My throat is tired now, but my endurance and power have to be built up. Whew! hard work, but I love it! Well, Just wanted all to know what I did today. Stay strong, stay in the Lord, stay in love with the Lord! Bye now!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 24, 2009
Hi all! Happy Sunday to ya! lololol Another joyous Sunday. Church was excellent! It is the Theatre of the South series at our church, ya know. Church was filled with people! Wonderful! I could see our Pastor grinning from ear to past his ear. lololololl The choir sung very well! My baby sung great!!! I was biting my lip wanting to sing! A hard task seeing as it looked,( I knew it was), very fun up there. Some were getting blessed in their soul singing, and some by hearing the songs. It was wonderful! Again, the background noise was a bit too much for me trying to talk over it. I am adept now at being able to tell when things are too loud for me to talk over it. I sound like I am gurgling sort of, almost like an accumulation of mucus is forming. It is a raspy sort of talking you know what I mean? Now church is over. I am home with Gianna. Nessa went with Gigi to Fayetteville. Gianna is rebelling against us some. Told a lie that she had done her homework packet when in fact she hasn't done any of it. That is not good! Now she is down stairs. Told her not to turn on tv, use cellphone, or computer until her homework was finished. She did not listen, but stomped around saying alot of things under her breath. The prob with that is I can hear it very well. I have a hearing deficit in one of my ears. I guess that makes the other one stronger. So I can hear her. And if I tell everything that Gianna says, her little behind would be always raw. (sigh) Anyway, I took the internet connection away from one computer, I shut down one tv. Now I hear another tv on. I can't yell at her, simply because I can't. And I am not going to disconnect every tv in the house. Stress, I am trying to avoid because I can feel my throat tightening up and that is not good from a healing standpoint for me. I am always trying to protect the girls and help them out. I doubt they will ever appreciate that because sometimes they sure don't appreciate it now. Remember I said I could hear pretty well at times. I hear some of the things they say under their breath about me sometimes. But heh, I am suppose to be relaying things about my vocal cords right? Right! I was just venting alittle. Well I am keeping quiet until Gigi gets home. I may practice my vocal exercises but for the main, keeping quiet. Well, talk to you later. Oh? How am I feeling? Like July when I can start singing again is eons away. Try to be and and get as close to Jesus. To be even a part of His shadow is a blessing. Bye!

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Oh the sneezing the sneezing the SNEEZING!!!!!!!! The sneezing hurts my throat because of the pressure built up behind it. That was something the vocal therapists did not want me to do alot of, but sometimes I can stop it, other times, well, it's just too strong to stop. It is times like this that worry me, that I will do some sort of damage, that my throat isn't healed all the way and I may damage the suture area on the vocal cord. It is also times like this I have to trust that God is protecting my throat during my sneezing episodes, that He who has began a good work in me won't stop working in, on , and through me until the work is finished. I am talking a little stronger though. My wife got on me last night! Why? Because I was breaking my talk limit protocol. Over the last couple of days, it has been hectic and due to varying situations, I had to talk longer than normal or use the cell phone when there was alot of background noise. Those are the times it really hurt because I had to elevate my volume just to be heard. Whew! I can't wait for this to be over. Still, when it is, I will pay more attention to keeping my voice healthy from overuse and strain. Alrighty then! Check with all of you later! Hey, all of you really want to be blessed? Check out my wife's blog , Victoriousg. Always push forward is the name of her blog.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi All
Sorry I am late with this blog. I skipped yesterday for how don't know why. Well, my recovery is on schedule as it should be. My throat was scoped but only for my peace of mind. The vocal therapist could already tell everything was good when I did lip trills from low to high without much cracking considering my vocal cord is still somewhat inflexible. We went over a vocal exercise routine plus some vocal warmups. She said the vocal warmups were for everytime I sing after I am fully recovered as well as for right now. Let's see if I can give you a rundown of it.
1.) Tongue Trills
A. 5 note scales up and down {1,2,3,4,5,4,3,2,1} Get louder as you get higher and make sure the last note is the same as the first.
B. Go up by 1/2 steps up and down {1,3,5,3,1} Get louder as you get higher and make sure the last note is the same as the first.
C. Go from low to high in octaves
2.) Go up a scale on the syllable "huh". Make the syllables short
3.) Hum 2-3 songs (any kind of song) on the "NG" sound. Don't hold back and make it as obnoxious as possible.

Hope this can help someone besides me. Well gotta go. Check with y'all later. Love somebody, hug somebody, it may be the only source of affection someone may get that day.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 19, 2009
Hi All, how is everyone? Another day has gone by and my voice is coming along. I still get hoarse after so many hours of talking but it is getting stronger. I still have to be cautious though. I have a doc visit with my vocal therapist tomorrow. I hope they scope my throat. I have been as nervous as a cat locked in a dog pen. I need reassurance everything is still going along like it suppose to and that things look the way it suppose to at this point. I have something else going on though. I have been having the beginnings of a cough going on. I don't know if it is a cold coming on, my allergies, or my sinus draining down into my throat. I take my medicine, my "O" medicine and my zantac. That suppose to stop the drainage. I will find out tomorrow. I gotta tell ya though. Sometimes no matter how hard I try not to cough, no matter how much water I drink to try not to cough, it still comes and sometimes I stifle a pretty hard cough, sometimes it comes out. That is why I need reassurance. Another thing. Since part of my recovery involves not drinking any caffeinated drinks, I don't really want coffee anymore. I guest that adage about forming a habit comes into play. You know,it takes 21 days to form a habit or break a habit. So you know how I am feeling. Nervous about tomorrow. But sometimes nervousness with me is good. It means I care about a situation when I am nervous. Notice I said nervous not scared. How's my faith in God. Like Tye Tribbett says I don't have no other choice but to trust (You) Him. But that's because He is so good and so true. For my peace of mind, for my peace in spirit and soul, I have to trust Him. He is the ultimate source of peace. Well, I will talk to all of you tomorrow. I will let you know how my doc visit goes. C ya! Love someone hug someone, maybe the only show of love or hug they get.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 17,2009
Hi All! It's me again! Your friendly neighborhood blogger! lololol What's shaking? Oh, that's an old school term isn't it? Well today, I went to church! Service was good! My wife singing was excellent as usual. The entire singing was so good I had to bite my tongue to stop from attempting to sing. Trying so hard to be obedient to MD orders. Afterwards, it started to rain. I don't know if I overdid talking or it was the damp weather or both, but I became hoarse. Even my wife noticed I was talking better in the early morning hours. Went to Fike high school for a concert one of my girls was in. Found it hard to talk over the background noise so I stopped or either I talking directly into Gigi's ear. Afterwards we went to Fuji's to eat. I got some hot tea. That and the spices in the food helped my voice actually. I wasn't so hoarse afterwards. It let me know though , that I still had a ways to go before my voice would be starting to resemble my old voice. Of course I hope for better. Still today really got to me because I really wanted to sing for the Theatre of the South program at our church. Well, there's always next year. Everyone at church asked how I was doing. It makes me happy and sad. Happy to know people care and ask how I am, but sad because it makes me think about it everytime they ask. Man! Well, time for bed and um er um, another full week. C ya! Remember keep God first in all you do and all you do after that still keep Him second, third, fourth, etc.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 16, 2009
Hi All, how is all of you doing? Well, another day is about to come to a close. Nothing much today. I noticed while waking up my throat is extra dry. Guess it will be like that from now on possibly, yes, I said possibly. But nothing a little liquids water, juice, tea decaffienated of course, can't handle. I did my vocal exercises of course. Now, my wife has gone to a function at Hunt High School. I elected not to go partly because it really hurts me to be in the audience instead of the choir stand and because two of my girls suppose to be cleaning their rooms so they can have company over. Don't look like that is going to happen. Oh well. But I, um, I am going to take care of my voice. It is a day like today that let's you know just how disciplined and serious one is, you know. You know though? I am looking at a Farrah Fawcett true documentary and story. She is having a losing battle with cancer but she has continual courage and a fight inside her that won't quit. Her faith in God is strong. This let's you know that no matter how much how tough you have it, someone has it that much tougher. See ya! Take care! And praise God continously

Friday, May 15, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 15, 2009
Hi All, how is everyone? Today, today, today. I have been to my clients houses those who were blind and couldn't read or houses it was so smoky in them I could not breathe and it irritated my throat. But today today TODAY! I went to a few houses where my clients were hard of hearing. Can you imagine trying to talk loud when you can't talk loud and you know by talking loud you may injure a not healed vocal cord? And not to mention the family member who you thought could help was hard of hearing as well? Physical therapy is a talking profession but not a yelling one! Man!!! So now my throat is very tired. I am hoarse which isn't good at all. I have been keeping quiet in the house. I told my wife my voice was stressed today. She understood as well as my other family members. I am glad today is Friday. NO work for the weekend means I can rest my voice. Now that is another plight anyone who has to have the surgery has to put up with. You don't have to be doing therapy to be around those who can't hear well. You could be around people who have to have a lot of background noise and you are trying to talk loud enough to be heard. Not good for those who just had this surgery. So take this into account as well. One of my compadres sent me a text this morning. He said, "I need help!!!" I said with what? He said,"the tenor section!" lolololol I do miss being there but not until I am cleared by my therapist. Well see you all. Just wanted to open the window and let you in on what I am going through. C ya and have a good weekend!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi all!
How are you all doing? Well, today was a day. All my clients spread out, lots of driving but lots of quiet time between clients. I get a chance to rest my voice. The smoky houses are really getting to me, irritating my throat though. I try just to give directions to the clients for the exercises. Occasionally, I have to give encouragement. I can feel when I have been talking for too long. All my facial and muscles around my throat feel really tired. I do my lip trills in between clients and sometimes twice if it is a long ride. I am starting to really miss singing. It is messing with my psyche. I never knew how much I truly loved to praise God through song. I really didn't. To see my wife go to choir practice, to not be singing with her especially and my other choir mates is really hard. To go to church and not be able to fully express myself in voice even saying Hallelujah is really hard. I am chomping at the bit to get back singing. It saddens me, that is why I don't really attend choir practices. And it saddens me to hear my tenor section not being up there with them. I miss doing solos. I just miss something terrible. lolol But it is not that funny. My wife tells me to be patient. I thought I had a lot of patience but this takes the cake. Yet I know I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. But I am still human. I miss it, I miss it, I miss it!!!!!! Someone even suggested maybe God wants me to gain strength in other venues such as increase my bible study. That very well maybe true. Well, check you all later. Have a great peaceful blessful Christful day!!!!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 12, 2009
Hi all! Latest updates. I had a Doc visit today. I went in, they did another scope. The lesion that was on my right vocal cord had cleared up which made me very happy. My left vocal cord was healing nicely. Still swollen from surgery as was expected. Instead of the whole cord looking reddish, at least half of it was the white color it suppose to be. From the middle to outside edge was still red. Again, it was too be expected only being 3 weeks out from surgery. I was told to continue with the tongue trills, ranging from even tone to lows and highs. Absolutely no attempts at singing. I was also told to minimize my time trying to talk over background noises, no yelling, no clearing my throat, to continue to minimize the coughing and sneezing. I had a pain on my left side of my throat. Only thing we could come up with is that the acid reflux at night dried out that area. I sleep on my left side mostly. So maybe the drainage dried that area out, so that my first initial drink of liquids hurt. But I noticed the more I drank, the less pain then no pain there was. Dr. Workman told me I was looking at between 6-8 to a year before I would get my full singing voice back in which I could sing high without having to possibly falsetto it. Dana told me I would be singing by choir day and she would teach me how to not damage my vocal cords and the best way to sing those high notes. I must admit when he said close to a year for my full voice, that was discouraging. For an instant I saw myself not being able to record with the choir when that time come. But for now, I have to be obedient to the authorities and trust God. That is scripture, to obey those above you. So I will obey them because the outcome is much greater than what I see now, both ways. If I am not obedient, I run the risk of scarring then my singing is about over. And if I am obedient, my voice will be even better than before. So as that commercial says, You make the call. lolololol Well gotta go. Just wanted you all to know what was going on. Remember be a mirror for God so people can see the Father through you. Bye now

Friday, May 8, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 8th, 2009
Hi All! Been gone for a few days from the post. Busy is all I got to say. One day, I went to one of my little ones concert. She sung the song Always along with her friend. She did well even though she thought she was shaking from being nervous on stage. I wanted to talk, but the noise in the auditorum was too much and I could not talk over it. I had to talk directly into Gigi's ear in order for me to be heard. Still, my voice is a little stronger. Just get tired after a certain time frame. Work be really hard on my voice. Smoky houses, different scents, having to talk a little more because some of the elderly clients don't read too well. Man!!!! By the end of the day, I am ready to shut up for an totally for an hour or two. That is what the drive home, the clock out at work and the little while before the house gets busy is for I guess. Still got to be careful though. The doc and vocal therapist say I should not be experiencing pain, but I am. I mean, when I drink liquids cold or hot. The initial sensation is pain, then it eases off the more I drink. I can't explain it if they can't. I internally hope nothing is wrong, cause I would find it hard to go back under the knife. I really dread that. Not the "what I fear has come upon me" type of dread but I believe a healthy fear to take care of myself. I can't undo what God has allowed to make and get better. That would be really bad! Today, I am getting a chance to keep quiet. Gigi is at our nephews graduation in Durham. I am keeping quiet with the other girls, except that Nessa keeps talking to me from a distance, know I can't yell and won't yell. Man!!!! I asked the girls to do a few things around the house. I am not going to yell just to get them to do it. I rather do it myself. They will be leaving the house for a little while which will give additional time to keep quiet. Should help me out quiet a bit. I am missing Gigi though. I bet when I am able to talk more, I am going to talk her ear off! lololololl Something just came to mind. Remember when Zechariah was in the temple when an angel appeared. Remember his voice was shut up when he questioned in disobedience what the angel said? I was disobedient some in not taking care of the voice God gave me like I should even though part of why I had the surgery was out of my hands. But when he finally could talk, it let loose a string of prophetic words concerning his son John. I wonder if I?????? Well just a nice thought! Well check with you all later! Hope you are getting some kinda insight reading my posts. I know it is helping me.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 6, 2009
Hi All! Well, I knew it was coming. One day of doubt and a lil self pity. I hit that wall that all people feel not being able to do what they love to do. I see it almost everyday with my clients. Those clients that had back, knee, or hip surgeries who wonder if they will ever walk normal again or for that matter, walk again. They wonder if they will be able to do their favorite things like gardening, store shopping, carpentry, or what ever it is that they love to do. I mean, they know it is a process, but still...that moment of doubt sits there like moss on side of a tree. Also there is this, I tell them that they will walk again when the soreness leaves or the more you heal, the more you will be able to do. I am attempting to encourage them. Now the shoe is on the other foot. I am the one who cannot do what he loves to do which is sing. I was even so discouraged I broke protocol for an hour. I think I talked almost 30 minutes out of an hour last night before going to bed. My wife even asked me why I was talking so much, be quiet. She's right you know. It is really telling on me this morning. My throat is extra tight and extra sore. Well, I am going to have to deal with it just as some of my clients who overdo it have to do. But like DeWayne Woods say, "How many know God to be a healer?" as in his song God is. The answer? I do. So God you are my healer and sustainer today. Also my limiter as you limit me from talking to much today. (smile) Well, gotta go to work. Maybe one day if I win the lottery I can say, Well maybe I will go to work for a few hours if I want. Nice thought huh? C ya! In the meantime, be strong with God!

Monday, May 4, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 4, 2009
Hi All! What a day what a day! I am tired. This is my first full day since that dreaded last Wednesday. Made it through but I am tired. I feel bad though mentally and physically. Oh how's my throat? Tired. Did not really hurt until the last part of the day, around my last 2 clients. Still don't want to talk too much yet until cleared by my doc to do so. Today was kinda uneventful but that's okay. Sometimes I like uneventful as I am sure everyone does. I confirmed my doc appt May 12th. They will prob scope me again to see how the throat is healing. If it is doing okay, then they will prob add on some more vocal exercises. The vocal therapist told me she was going to attempt to have me ready by choir day in July. I will one happy soldier!!! Well, don't have much today. Gotta go get cleaned up. One thing, going in and out of the client's houses combined with my own sweat......well let's just say I gotta go get cleaned up. lololololll C ya! And remember when all else fails look up! He is always looking down smiling as well as on the inside speaking in your heart.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 3rd, 2009
Hi all! Sorry for the lapse. I was not able to log in yesterday. My family and I went to Fayetteville to celebrate the honorable, incomparable Maxine Andrews-McCall's birthday! For those of you who don't know, that's my mom right there. lolololol Gigi planned a good celebration for her. Mom was surprised! She said usually nothing sneaks past her, but this one did. All the grandchildren were there which really made her day especially the since her first 2 grandchildren was there. Food was excellent! I still was not talking that much. I couldn't say anything over all the background noises. I would have been really hoarse trying to talk over the noise of the laughter, talking, and music. My throat was hurting anyway with what little talking I was doing. Plus I was sneezing and coughing which was putting a strain on me. When all the people were giving there remarks about mom, don't you know she made me write something for her? Nessa read it for me. Man!!!
Now today, I went to church! Felt like I haven't been to church in a while. A lot of church members greeted me and gave well wishes. I did not really attempt to talk. I knew if I talked to one, I may have ended up talking most of them. So I kept my mouth reasonable shut. Choir was sounded pretty good. I'm glad even though I wish my voice was up there right now. But I didn't not have a chance to feel down or anything. In all good time, I will be back up there. Went out to eat at Parker's with our family as Gigi and I call them. They were joking me big time!!! But I have come to know when they joke like that, they love you. Again I tried not to talk above all the background noise not wanting to risk anything. I am still doing my vocal exercises like they said. My voice sounds so disappointing right now though. Man! But to God who will get the glory, Hallelujah Lord and I love ya!!!!! Well, c ya later! Try to get atcha tomorrow!

Friday, May 1, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 1, 2009
Hi All! Another day has gone by. Had a short day today as well. Man, my body needed it!! I feel some better, not much from the day before, but better still. I will definitely take that little positive sign above feeling worse. I gotta recovery, for sake of the kingdom, for family's sake, for wife's sake, and for my sake and sanity. I must admit, not being able to sing and stuff is wearing on me alittle. It messes with my mind. The whole time the devil is telling me I will never sing again. Sometimes I hear him say I will never give God the fruit of my lips again. The worse thing I hear him say is I am the worse of the least in the kingdom of God, that I can't do anything to help further the Gospel, and that I am worthless. That's what I hear him saying. But.......What God says is let him talk, let him have his say, take no thought of revenge or vain speaking because He will repay him back of all the devil has said to me. God said, He will have the last laugh. He said when I do sing again, the devil will once again have to shrink in his corner, with a black eye, and know that he has lost the battle. I hear God say that. Now who do you think I am going to believe. I am going to believe my Father of course, not no lying backstabbing devil. I hear God saying take my time and do what the docs recommended. I am trying my best.
Now, I am hurting in my throat though. On the left side it feels like where the surgery was, the left vocal cord. I am not sure if it suppose to feel like this right now. I am not sure if it is because I am trying not to take pain medication so much meaning that oxycodone because tylenol and other aspirin is causing my right vocal cord to not heal from the bleed. But I did take one a few minutes ago and I hope it kicks in soon. In a way I like the pain because I know that during the day, if I had pain medication in me, I would not be able to tell if I had pain, therefore I may talk more and do damage that I can't feel until the pain medication wore off.
I can't wait to be singing with my heart soon. I want to do more songs with her. I really do. I don't know what other songs Alton will have for me to do. And that's another thing. I am trying really hard to not feel like I am letting him down. I want him to be a success and I know me singing has a role in it. He already has songs for people. He knows everyones voice and picks songs that God tells him would be perfect. I know he can't do the songs he wants to in my range because I am not singing right now. All I can say is soon, soon. Now, what am I feeling. I am feeling somewhat better. My psyche is a little better. I feel like I am almost to top of the mountain. That I soon will be to the top looking down at the blessings waiting for me in which I have no choice but to receive them because I use that downward momentum to run smack down into the middle of them. Well, let me go. I will check on you all later. God bless and stay continously blessed.