Saturday, September 12, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Sept 12, 2009

Hi all!
I hope this finds you chipper and in good spirits! Love all of ya that has dropped by. You may not have left any comments but I know you was here. Thank you ! I really appreciate it!
What is happening on the homefront you say? War, war, and more war. Resist the devil and he will flee right? Mean to say, we are on the warfront everyday. The devil attacks us more and more because we are our Father's chosen. He attacks us because we are doing our Father's work, we are love by Him, we find no fault in Him, and we have taken over the devil's job as worshipper in the kingdom. The devil is jealous and seeks to bring us down, to make us seem unimportant in God's eyes, but it will never be. I believe my family is on the front lines. We are anointed to praise God and battle the devil to keep him away from the unsaved until they can be saved, accepting Jesus into their lives. So I know the devil attacks us because he is fearful of God's creation. This is what it means to resist the devil, to battle anything he can throw at us. To defeat his strengths and leave him demoralized!!! As a friend of mine says almost every choir practice and day he sings, "Stomp on the devil's head, uh!"
Well, I have sung quite a bit now. It still sounds funny hearing my voice now. I have some cracking at the top end of my range. Even at the middle and low, my voice sounds as if I am a tenor/baritone at times. When I am able to hit some highs, it sounds sharp. At times my breathing is unsteady and it tells in my voice at times. I gotta tell you though, it is 1000 times better than it was though. There were times I couldn't even make any kind of sound or note. So I will be thankful for the little things. Of course I am highly critical of myself. Each time I sing I expect every note to be perfect, which is a good thing. Expectation is good! But it can be bad in a way as well. It is easy to get down on myself when each note is not perfect up to my expections. I still have to build strength in my vocal cords to withstand singing for any duration and for hitting notes. I can tell also I need more work on my tone. I wish I had a pitchpipe right now so that I could. I will one day soon. Can you tell I am serious about this thing y'all?
Overall am I pleased? Let's see. I will have to answer............Yes, yes I am. Yet I still know I have to be careful. Being not completely healed yet, I can tell. You know at times, I can still feel a little pain, a twinge of pain. I would love to get another scopy of my throat just to keep tabs on my throat. Maybe sometime in the future but not now.
Today was interesting though. When I sung, I sounded and it felt like I was under water almost like I was gargling. Not sure if that is because I am backing off my reflux medicine or what. The doc wants me to start backing off the medications and eventually stop. He says that type of medication is not suppose to be taken for the rest of your life. He says eventually your body will start producing too much mucus to compensate for the muscus stopped by the medicine. It kinda makes sense. The human body is wonderful at adapting to anything. Well gotta listen to this song for tomorrow. C ya and thanks for listening! As always keep your family close and God even closer. I am not leaving anything this time. Just a lil change of pace mind you. lololol Bye now!!!!!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

LIfe after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Sept 5, 2009

Hi All,
Okay Okay!!! Get off my back!! I know it has been a minute since I have been up here blogging! Give a guy a break!!! loloooll Seriously I was just waiting until I had enough to put up here. I will give you a quick rundown. I have been singing with both the male chorus, mass choir, and ensemble. My voice has been a little tired but that is due to the increase in activity I think. When it gets tired, I sound as if I have a lot of mucus in my throat that won't go away. There still are some notes I cannot hit yet though and that frustrates me. I did sing a solo for the male chorus, um, what was that.., oh yeah, God will deliver by the Williams Brothers. I was doing one of the leads. Started out Melvin's lead but switched over to Doug's adlibs. I was so excited that I messed up a bit on a verse(scripture) but straightened out afterwards. I am not naturally singing right now meaning I am thinking about breathing correctly with the proper attack, during the verse and everything trying hard not to put too much pressure on my throat. I am thinking about the words and such. If you think I am a lil fearful of hurting my vocal cords you are right. I try to trust that I am doing my exercises correctly and singing correctly but everytime I feel a twinge or my vocal cords feel dry, that fear comes back. I don't want to have that surgery ever again!!! Most said I did well on the song and the lil squeaks I heard, no one else heard, because there wasn't any. I have seen and heard the dvd. I still have some work to do, lots of it as far as I am concerned. All say my voice has changed for the better. My singing voice isn't the same as before the surgery. I guess I don't know if the voice I have now is God ordained or I am to return to my former voice. I don't know. But God is good and that is a big important but!!! A good but!!!! Well, gotta get ready for the marriage enrichment class. See ya and as always Keep your family and loved ones close and God even closer. And as always here's a little something at the end for you to marinate over. C ya!

Spiritual SoldiersJothany Blackwood
"Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes…" Ephesians 6:11-17
One of the realities we all come to is that sometimes we are in the right fight but with the wrong people. We believe we are really at odds with a co-worker, another church member, or even the person we are in a relationship with. But when we come to the realization that it’s not the individual we struggle against, but the spirit that is controlling them we can shift our approach.
When we focus on it being the person, then we fight them in the flesh where we can never have victory. Because the enemy is masterful at things of the flesh it’s an uneven match. You can’t bring a knife to a gunfight and that’s what you do when you think you’ll give that person back what they are giving to you.
But when you understand that you are dealing with the rulers of darkness that are strategic in their assignments to destroy and kill you, then we have to know what weapons to fight with and protect ourselves. The fact that they rule in darkness indicates that they cannot handle the light. And the light is the Word of God, which is why Psalm 119:105 says “Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.”
When the Scripture acknowledges that there is wickedness in high places that tells you that the enemy does have power. So it would be unwise to believe you can face such a formidable foe on your own strength. Your strength will come from the Word of God and He prepares us strategically for being spiritual soldiers.
God clearly directs us on how to protect ourselves, yet rather than put on the belt of truth, many of us are spiritually sagging. You can’t be prepared to defend yourself from the world when everything about you reflects the world. And as we guard our chest, we are really being protective of what is placed in our hearts for there we find the seat of our conduct and character. And character is simply what you will do when you believe no one is watching.
Then He tells us that our feet should be fitted in Christian cleats so we can hold our ground, despite the elements that seek to make us lose our footing. And that shield of defense against the advances of others is surely made from the promises of God.
The enemy is relentless and if he can defeat us on the battlefield of our minds, our flesh will easily follow. But we must be clear that the fight is not physical, it’s not against the person in front of us; it’s one of spirit and in that we have the confidence that we have already been given victory. But we can delay or forfeit the promised end when we do not rely on God’s strength.
We have all been prepared for these ceaseless battles and as spiritual soldiers, we should be tireless in working towards hearing “'Well done, good and faithful servant!”

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi all!
Well, I sung today. I did a lead and a duet. I was SCARED out of my wits let me tell you! Not wanting to ruin my throat I was babying it as much as I could. That did not work to well all the squeaking I was doing in my high register, so I decided to cut loose on a couple. It came out but it stung a little as well. Made it through "Waitin' on Jesus" then sung "God will deliver" with my bro William. Forgot some words on both songs and my timing was off. I could also hear my tone and pitch was off as well. God got me through those. I got the feeling everyone was expecting me to run but no running today. I had too much to think about keeping my voice together. That is something else to look out concerning the voice after surgery, not wanting to strain. Now I am feeling it now. A lil stinging and I am hoarse some. I don't know now much practice I will do tomorrow. I will probably take it easy. I even talked with one singing expert who advised me not to sing now for about 6 months. They told me how they sung before then , the nodes returned resulting in another surgery. Yet , my vocal therapist and the surgeon said to go ahead. I guess they win out above everyone seeing as though they did the surgery and treatment. Well tomorrow is another day. Hopefully and prayerfully, my voice will get better. I am highly critical of myself. I don't think I did that well, but I will use that to keep myself motivated. I am also going to get the dvd to listen to myself. I don't like that, it makes me sweat lololol. Well, until next time okay? I left you all something at the end as always. Keep your family close and God even closer.

Celebrating The Gift Of The Spirit by Bishop Jim Swilley
But to each one is given the manifestation of the [Holy] Spirit [the evidence, the spiritual illumination of the Spirit] for good and profit. To one is given in and through the [Holy] Spirit [the power to speak] a message of wisdom, and to another [the power to express] a word of knowledge and understanding according to the same [Holy] Spirit; to another [wonder-working] faith by the same [Holy] Spirit, to another the extraordinary powers of healing by the one Spirit; to another the working of miracles, to another prophetic insight (the gift of interpreting the divine will and purpose); to another the ability to discern and distinguish between [the utterances of true] spirits [and false ones], to another various kinds of [unknown] tongues, to another the ability to interpret [such] tongues. All these [gifts, achievements, abilities] are inspired and brought to pass by one and the same [Holy] Spirit, Who apportions to each person individually [exactly] as He chooses. (1 Corinthians 12:7-11, AMP)
The Gifts of the Spirit are:
G – od’s grace… the Gifts or Graces of the Holy Spirit…the “Charismata”…are available to us…
I – nfinite inspiration… the God-breathed unction inspires us to action and to good works…
F – ree flow… the Wind blows where it wills…in Him we live, and in Him we MOVE!...
T – imeless treasures… the Spiritual Gifts reveal the “I AM”…the God Who is in the NOW…
S – upernatural signs... “Not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit, says the Lord”…O – mnipresent opportunity… God’s enabling Spirit can go anywhere…do anything…
F – irst fruits... Oh, what a foretaste of Glory Divine!...the Former and Latter Rain together…
T – ranscendant talents… we accomplish more in the Spirit than we ever could in the flesh…
H – eavenly help… “But you shall receive power after the Holy Spirit has come upon you”…
E – cclesiastical equipping… the Gifts bring life and give effectiveness to the Church…S – pecial services… unique abilities… the Working of Miracles, Gifts of Healing, Gift of Faith…
P – entecostal power… “you shall be My witness…to the uttermost parts of the earth”…
I – nsightful information… Speaking with Tongues, Interpretation of Tongues, Prophecy…
R – eal revelation… the Word of Knowledge, the Word of Wisdom, the Discerning of Spirits…
I – nvaluable instruction… Helper/Teacher…the Spirit of Truth will lead you into all truth…
T – ransformational truth… Man cannot live by bread alone, but by every word that PROCEEDS (present tense) out of the mouth of God. The Gifts of the Spirit connect us with the “proceeding” Word of God.
A loose definition of the Greek word for “word” reveals that the Logos is what God has said, the Rhema is what God is saying. God is speaking IN THE NOW through the Gifts of the Spirit, and those gifts are available to every believer!
The Spiritual Gifts are for you!

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi all,
Well, let's get to the point here, huh? I've had my last appt with my vocal surgeon who advised me keep at the exercises and I am looking at 6 months to a year for my voice to totally be healed, but he said the scope that did of my throat looked very good. I sung tonight in our church concert. I warmed up and everything. I started losing my voice somewhat toward the end of the songs tonight. A lil disappointing but not much and only due to I want my voice to be totally better NOW!!!! lolol Gonna keep at it gonna keep at it. Not much now to write about except keep everyone abreast of all that is going on. I know alot of my problems is due to going houses during the week and smelling and breathing all sorts of smells, most of them not good. Well, tomorrow is another day and I can only pray to our Father that total healing happens. Well, see all of you later and as always, keep your family close and God even closer. As always I leave a little tidbit at the end. C ya!

The First Fruit Of Servanthood Is Love by Dr. Zachary Tims, Jr.

The passage in Galatians 5:22-23 shows us exactly what God expects from his people in how we ought to treat one another, "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance…" Galatians 5:22-23.
The first and foremost Fruit of the Spirit is Love. Love is the rudimentary principle of the New Testament commandment illustrated by Jesus Christ, “Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind….And the second [is] like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.” Matt 27:37-39.
And in John 13:33-34, “A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all [men] know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.”
Could the first fruit of Love be the characterizing factor that sets us apart from the unrighteous? Of course it is. Is there a reason why Jesus directed this statement to His disciples, the first original leaders of the New Testament church? I believe there is a reason.
The disciples were continually jockeying for position to get on Jesus’ highly esteemed good side, but he kindly rebuked this behavior telling them, “But he that is greatest among you shall be your servant.” Matt, 23:11. These disciples were His front-line leaders, Apostles, Elders, Ministers, Deacons, and administration staff.
The first principle of Servanthood is love.
We have to apply the Servanthood factor to how we respond to God’s people. The point is that leaders ought to be the first ones compelled to show a demonstration of the Fruit of the Spirit. They are the examples for the rest of the church. Clearly, servanthood is demonstrated in how we are to love one another with the Jesus kind of love.
Now since the Fruit of the Spirit is one whole concept of Christ-like character, the Apostle Paul encouraged the church in Galatia, to “walk in the Spirit” and then he gave them instructions on how to fulfill that mandate through the Fruit of the Spirit. Love is just the top surface that peels off multiple layers of joy, peace, patience, endurance, kindness, goodness, humility, self-control, and faith.
A gentle answer, a soft spoken word in season, sincere compassion to reach out to the hurting, a listening ear, intercession, and empathy is what shows God’s people the love they deserve from leaders.
That’s why I believe the first fruit of servanthood modeled in the Fruit of the Spirit and exemplified in how we demonstrate our love, “one for another.”

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

August 11, 2009

Hi all! What? I know , I know. I have been laxed at keeping up with my blog. Well, now that you are through fussing at me, hear is the latest. We sung at the Byron Cage concert. It was awesome! Byron and his crew was awesome!!!!! The music was loud so I was conscious of not singing to loud to be heard over the music. I monitored it pretty well I believe. I used the other voices you may say instead of letting pride get in the way to outsing someone. I did my warmup exercises and my warmdown. I had minimal soreness and hoarseness. On the high registers I attempted to mix head and falsetto to save my voice. It seemed to work well. However, I think in between the hot outside temps and the air conditioner in the place, I caught a cold, a virus, I don't know what. All I know is last night I could not sleep because of the coughing and plugged up nose. I went to see my surgeon who basically said everything looked good but to keep up with the exercises the vocal therapist laid out. She showed me a pic of my vocal cords and she described I had a pseudo-node as she called it. Not a real node but one only due to the after surgery swelling. She gave me an exercise that would help reduce it. The surgeon said I have around 6 months to a year before my voice will be fully back which is normal. I kinda feel better that he gave me a time frame. He did not do that before the surgery. Maybe did not want to see any disappointment in my face I guess. The vocal therapist also gave me some tongue and face exercises. This are hard!!!!!!! Just to do them to fatigue makes it feel like someone lassoed my tongue and is dragging me up the street!!!!! lolololl Well that is the latest. I am getting there people, I am getting there. Well, that is the news so I am outty. And as always keep your family close and God even closer. And as always I am leaving a little something at the end. Bye now!

Walk in Your Authority by Dr. Creflo A. Dollar

You don't have to put up with the devil's oppression any longer. God has empowered you with the anointing to remove burdens, destroy yokes and to be an overcomer. The devil is a burden that can easily be driven away by exercising your God-given authority.
God has given you His Word and His Spirit as a defense against the devil's schemes. You've been clothed in the armor of God so "...that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil" (Ephesians 6:11). You have everything needed to defeat the devil whenever he shows up at your door. He will keep showing up because you possess something that he desperately wants-your God-given authority to rule and reign in the earth.
When God created Adam, he gave him dominion and authority over the earth (Genesis 1:26, AMP). However, when Adam rebelled against God, he turned his authority to rule over to the devil. Satan then had control over everything except the throne of God (2 Corinthians 4:4). Since Satan contaminated the ground with sin, God couldn't destroy Adam and make another man from the dust of the earth. Aren't you thankful that He had plan? He came to the earth as a man. Through Jesus' death and resurrection, he defeated Satan and took back our authority to rule (Hebrews 2:9, 14), and we have been restored to our rightful place of authority.
Jesus has all power and authority in heaven and earth (Matthew 28:18). Since we were raised with Him, we have all power and authority as well (Ephesians 2:4-7). Therefore, do not neglect your right to rule and reign in the earth. Every time the enemy tries to attack you, consider it an opportunity to exercise your power over him. You have the authority to declare what is lawful and unlawful in this earth, and to permit or to forbid things on the earth-even death (Matthew 16:18-19, AMP).
I challenge you to begin making demands in Jesus' name. John 14:13-14 says, "And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it." The word ask means "demand." What you demand in Jesus' name (from the Word), He promises He will do. Understand that when you make a demand, you aren't demanding that God do things. Instead, you are demanding that the devil submit to the Word, to loose his hold and to stop his operations against you.
Faith is involved in exercising your spiritual authority. You must base your faith on what the Word says, not on circumstances. When circumstances do not change immediately, some people become discouraged and begin to speak doubt and unbelief. This only gives the devil dominion over their words, which ultimately defeat them. Don't hand over your authority to Satan through your words. Instead, break the power of the devil by walking in your authority!

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

August 1, 2009

Hi All! Been a minute since I have been back huh? Yeh, I know. Well, since the last time, I have sung quite a bit. We are attempting to get ready for the Byron Cage concert. I am singing watching my breathing and tone, attempting to regain some of my former voice. It is tough. I think I am doing well. The only thing is I don't have someone else to measure against, you know, someone else, another singer who had the same surgery and is attempting to regain their singing voice. I remember reading about Joann Rosario say it took her two years before she was able to record and sing professionally again or at least before she put out an cd. I must admit I am a little disappointed in my voice. It leaves me sometimes and like today, I am a little hoarse even though I keep vocal tension to a minimal. Just hope I am ready when my turn to lead comes into play. I am not rushing it though. Also trying to keep the stress level down. But I have to trust God you know. No other way I can do this without Him. Just wanted everyone to know some of the things you may have to go through should you or if you needed this surgery one day. I pray that God gives you continually excellent vocal health though. Well C ya! And as always there is a little something something at the end. And as always keep your family close and God even closer. Bye


Let Liberty Decide by Darwin Hobbs
As believers, we all have to make a number of conscious decisions; decisions concerning our jobs, families, marriages, God, and concerning our life in general. And although the decisions we are faced with are often at times difficult for us to make, there is something we all can find joy in. Something very few of us believe we even have at our disposal: Liberty.
Believe it or not, we as believers have been granted liberty in the spirit of God to make choices that will effect change in not only our lives, but in the world we live in.
According to Webster's dictionary, the definition of liberty (or freedom) is the "right and power to act, believe, or express oneself in a manner of one's own choosing." Within this definition, we discover that we have rights, power, and yes, we have choices.
As Christians, all the power and rights we have ever needed were transferred to us over 2000 years ago at the cross. The redemption plan literally bought us back from the curse of the law of sin and death, meaning we now have kingdom citizen rights and power.
So what does this mean for you and me today?
This simply means that we have the ability to act, believe, and express ourselves in ways that bring Glory to the Father. However, although we are free and liberated by the blood of Christ, we still must make good choices. I Corinthians 10:23 states that "all things are lawful, but not all things are profitable (or expedient)."
While we reserve the right and power to make our own decisions, within this scripture lies an awesome opportunity to impact the earth with godly decisions. Throughout the course of today or throughout this week, I encourage you to try to become more aware and conscious about the type of decisions that face you.
I know it's tough, but I dare you to make decisions that don't include any self gain or self promotion for yourself this week. Instead, ask yourself...
What would it be like to consider another person over myself?
What would it be like to resist the temptation to gossip and backbite?
What would it be like to become a person of my word for just seven days straight?
It is time for us all to realize that we are not only free and liberated "by" the spirit and sacrifice of Christ, but we also now have the ability to experience liberty "in" Christ every day of our lives. It is time we all took a self-examination of our lives and discover whether we are making decisions that represent a heart that is truly free in Christ...
...or are we simply just making decisions?

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

July 26, 2009

Hi All! Today singing was a pretty good day! I had a little more power. I did not really hurt singing and I was able to last throughout the whole service. I also have started thinking of my voice as a musical instrument, to be taken care of, to use different volumes and pitches, and to learn as Donald Lawrence says to pace myself. Those are all of the positives. Some of the negatives is that I still can't full voice a lot of highs and at times I do sound like a broken reed when my vocal cords do not vibrate enough. That is when I put more air into the note and the fluttering stops. Then I realize I have to build up my cardiovascular endurance to be able to sustain and adequate push to avoid using vocal muscles to get the note out. That is good I believe in my recognizing the problem. I noticed on a few songs in which I forgot to monitor myself, I started using a little throat, but at least when I realized it, I took the focus off of my throat and put it back on my diaphragm. Whew! I feel as though I am starting to learn to sing all over again. Well, now I know I have to build up my wind again. But overall, it was a good day. I was a little hoarse for a few minutes but it passed with the warmdown exercises. But overall, still a good day. Well, that's all I have to say today. There is practice tomorrow and I want to be ready for that. I think I am going to be part of a lead for a song, in fact, I know I am so I might as well get ready huh? lolol Kudos to my lovely wife! Her encouragement means more than the world to me. As always, keep your family close and God even closer. I am leaving you a little something as always at the end. Enjoy! I trust it will get in your spirit. Bye


Be the Jesus They See by Pastor Andre Butler

He who says he abides in Him ought himself also to walk just as He walked. --1 John 2:6

In the verse above, the word “walk” in the Greek means to live. And if you are in Christ, God has an expectation that you will live a certain way. And realize that He is not expecting you to live a certain way just on Sundays or when things are going bad and you need Him to show up in your life. He is talking about how you live, period. God has an expectation for your lifestyle.
So those who are in Jesus, as far as God is concerned, should live their lives like Jesus did. There was a certain way Jesus operated when He was on the planet, and God is saying if you are saying you are in Jesus then ultimately you should be like Him. Most people believe that it is not really possible to live like Jesus did. I mean after all, He was Jesus. He was the son of God. Well, what are you? The Bible says you are a child of God, an heir of God, and a joint heir with Jesus Christ. You are just as much a son of God as Jesus was and is.
I want you to understand that the world needs you to be like Jesus. The world needs to see Jesus coming around the corner, Jesus working in the cubicle working next to them, Jesus in the grocery store, Jesus praying for their kids, and Jesus being in their neighborhood. The world is looking for Superman. They are looking for Jesus, and they should see Him in you. It should be that when people look at your life they get a picture of Jesus’ life. If they are seeing you, they are seeing Him, because you are just like Him.
So how do you do this? Well, all the commands that God gave us in His Word can be summed up in the Law of Love. Romans, Chapter 13 teaches us that love is the fulfilling of the law. So if you really want to know what do to be like Jesus, the answer is to walk in love. And realize that being like Jesus is fulfilling the commandment of love, because He walked in love.
Jesus gave you a model so you can imitate it. So you also should be a model and one whose conduct is worthy of imitation. That sounds like Jesus to me. Many times people do not just learn because you said something to them; they learn because they saw you do it. There is power in an example, and there is no greater example than Jesus.
So you be the Jesus they see.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

July 21, 2009

Hi All, me again. Back to let you know what is happening on the front. Last time I checked I told you all I sung with the male chorus and lasted pretty well. Well, last night I sung at practice almost every song, well every song. I just hung back on some songs. I could not go full voice in the high range so I sort of did a cross between falsetto and full voice. But I gotta tell you today, my entire throat area is tired, so tired. It feels like it is full of something and heavy. Maybe I overdid it a little but I have to push it a little to get back in shape. Maybe there is finally a light in the tunnel. I want to be able to start singing solos again. I miss it y' know? Trying so hard to use proper technique and sing up into my throat vs using throat muscles with just enough breath to get the note out and not tense up the throat. Well that's it for today. Gotta go, but keep me in your prayers. God bless and remember keep your family close and God even closer. In parting, here is a little something extra below

Be the Jesus they see by Pastor Andre Butler

He who says he abides in Him ought himself also to walk just as He walked. --1 John 2:6 In the verse above, the word "walk" in the Greek means to live. And if you are in Christ, God has an expectation that you will live a certain way. And realize that He is not expecting you to live a certain way just on Sundays or when things are going bad and you need Him to show up in your life. He is talking about how you live, period. God has an expectation for your lifestyle.So those who are in Jesus, as far as God is concerned, should live their lives like Jesus did. There was a certain way Jesus operated when He was on the planet, and God is saying if you are saying you are in Jesus then ultimately you should be like Him. Most people believe that it is not really possible to live like Jesus did. I mean after all, He was Jesus. He was the son of God. Well, what are you? The Bible says you are a child of God, an heir of God, and a joint heir with Jesus Christ. You are just as much a son of God as Jesus was and is. I want you to understand that the world needs you to be like Jesus. The world needs to see Jesus coming around the corner, Jesus working in the cubicle working next to them, Jesus in the grocery store, Jesus praying for their kids, and Jesus being in their neighborhood. The world is looking for Superman. They are looking for Jesus, and they should see Him in you. It should be that when people look at your life they get a picture of Jesus' life. If they are seeing you, they are seeing Him, because you are just like Him. So how do you do this? Well, all the commands that God gave us in His Word can be summed up in the Law of Love. Romans, Chapter 13 teaches us that love is the fulfilling of the law. So if you really want to know what do to be like Jesus, the answer is to walk in love. And realize that being like Jesus is fulfilling the commandment of love, because He walked in love. Jesus gave you a model so you can imitate it. So you also should be a model and one whose conduct is worthy of imitation. That sounds like Jesus to me. Many times people do not just learn because you said something to them; they learn because they saw you do it. There is power in an example, and there is no greater example than Jesus.So you be the Jesus they see.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

I am back again. lolool How is everyone doing? Well, I have been to practices and sung with the mass choir again. My voice is stronger but not the way I want it or as far along as I want it. There are just notes I cannot hit right now. There are just volume levels I cannot hit right now. I was told by my vocal therapist that is to be expected though and not to rush it. Sure, I may be a bit cautious, but I have right to be. I don't ever want to go through this surgery again. How is my throat? Well, those of you who either listen intently or know about playing a wind instrument with a reed. Remember the sound a reed makes when it is either splintered or getting ready to splinter? That flutter sound? Well that is what my vocal cord does at times. I can feel it and hear it inside my head. At times I can hear it in my speaking voice when it gets tired. It is not as pronounced as in the beginning thank God!!! I still believe I will be ready by the end of July to sing solos again. But if not, I will consider it a part of God's plan and good timing. Praise God!!!!! Well, that's the low down on that. You know what? I have even begun singing around the house a little. A little will lead to alot! lolololol Well, gotta run and as always, keep those you love close and God even closer. And as always I am leaving a little something at the end of this message. Trust it helps someone. Bye

Make Room for Your Blessings by Rev. James C. Matthews

"Now Jabez called on the God of Israel, saying, "Oh that You would bless me indeed and enlarge my border, and that Your hand might be with me, and that You would keep {me} from harm that {it} may not pain me!" And God granted him what he requested." 1 Chronicles 4:10 Most people today are familiar with the Prayer of Jabez and how he dared to ask God to bless him indeed. Many of us may have memorized and even recited Jabez's prayer in hopes that God would likewise respond to our prayers and bless us in a like manner.However, I believe one of the major reasons many of our prayers have not been answered is because we have forgotten or simply do not understand a principle that Jabez understood. This principle is: "God blesses those who have prepared themselves to be blessed".When Jabez asked God to bless him indeed, he was asking God do something He nor anyone around him had experienced. He asked for something out of the ordinary and supernatural. Recognizing he did not have the capacity to handle such a blessing, He petitioned God to provide him with the necessary capacity by expanding his borders. Jabez said, God bless me indeed, but don't forget to correspondingly increase my ability to handle what You are going to do. This is the key to experiencing God's abundance in your life.Many of us have asked God to do something extra ordinary in our lives but we don't have the capacity to handle or properly manage what we've asked for. We've asked God to pour out rivers of blessing upon us but only have a cups capacity. If God were to give us what we've asked for much of it would be wasted. God will never give us something that we are not ready for.There may even be some who have been preparing themselves for expansion but have forgotten God in their preparation. You can't build a barn big enough to hold what God can pour out. Only God knows the measure and integrity of the container needed to possess His blessings.When God called Abraham and told him that he was going to multiply and bless him abundantly the first thing He told him was to move. God told him to move from his family and go to a place that He would show him. God told Abraham to move for two reasons:(1) It would remove him from the pagan influences of his family and society, and(2) to make room for the blessing that He had planned to give him.Abraham disobeyed God by bring his nephew Lot with him and the first recorded quarrel they had was not over money or theological differences - but space. God had blessed Abraham to the point that the land could not hold both of them. The reason the land could not hold both of them was because the land was given in proportion to Abraham's blessing. God blessed Abraham but also gave him the means and ability to possess and care for his blessing.What have you asked God to do in your life? Do you believe that God will answer you? Are your preparations adequate and in line with what you've asked Him for? Have you included God in your preparations? I believe if Jabez were here to share with us the key to experiencing abundance in our lives he would say: First, believe that God will bless you, and second, you must be prepared for your blessing before it will comes.Have you made room for your blessing?

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

July 16, 2009
Fear, fear, fear. Well, I will get to that in a moment. I sung again with the mass choir. The songs we sung today was up in the top end of my register. It was tough. I got through the day but I had to falsetto alot of parts I normally would sing full voice. Kinda disappointing in that respect. I guess you can say I sung today as was needed to preserve my voice rather than how I felt like I should have sung. Like I said before though, I want to sing better than I use to sing. My voice doesn't feel strong enough yet. It sounds strange to hear my voice as well. It sounds (to me) as if my voice isn't even clearing 2 ft around me. Feels like I am not being heard. One thing I am conscious of now is not trying to outsing the instruments or people. I am starting to become voice aware. Hopefully knowing how it feels to sing at a certain level. I believe that way I will know how loud I am singing without even having to hear myself.
Now, about the fear. There are a few issues. Well for starters, I sung from the back row today vs up close to the microphone. I was afraid I would crack or hit a wrong note. Don't know if I would or not, it is what I thought. Next fear, feeling as though I wasn't singing loud enough. I probably was, but to me I wasn't but I did not want to try to sing louder because I was afraid of injuring my voice by singing to hard and loud. Next fear, there was a song that I have only sung maybe once or twice. It was on sort of a worship spot and my wife started singing the adlib. She looked back at me to get the mike and finish but I was too afraid of cracking, hitting the wrong note,and embarrassing myself. Fear, fear, fear. My confidence has gone down a little. I used to have confidence I could hit any note, sing anything without trying. Now I am unsure of myself right now. But fortunately, I know how to break out of this rut. More practice at home for one thing, singing full voice so I will feel prepared. More affirmations to myself that I can regain my status within myself. Listening to my wife tell me I can do it. But the main thing is that when I am weak, God can show Himself strong. I must remember that. And I will. It will not be without some effort but what good thing is worth not putting forth effort. I know I can come forth as pure gold after the trying time. Okay, now to rest my voice. Practice a bit later and hopefully my voice will have recovered enough to go to practice tomorrow. Until later folks, love some one, pray for some one and show the the love of Jesus. And as I am accustomed now to do, read the inspirational message at the end. See ya!!!!
Faith Report CardLatrice Pace As a preacher's kid, I grew up hearing and reading about faith. As an adult I've come to know and experience what faith is and does. FAITH: loyalty, belief and trust in God. I am a fan of Webster.com and when I typed "trust" I noticed the derivatives were, "trustability", "trustable", "truster", "trustingly", "trustingness". Nothing came up for "trusted". It may very well be a word, but not acknowledged by Webster. My point, "trust" is never past tense. It's not something you did once and it didn't work out for you. A friend once said to me, "to say you've trusted is to say life got stuck in a previous experience of failure or hurt." As believers its never a thing of the past, it's our now, our life. It's the fundamental fact of our existence."But without faith it is impossible to please and be satisfactory to Him." Hebrews 11:6 Amp.I, like so many others have found myself to the point of frustration and really wanting to be enlightened when it came to the subject of faith. I'd ask, What am I doing wrong?, What am I not getting? Why is my life not yielding certain results? There have been numerous Biblical testimonies of faith set before us to show us that if we get in the habit of believing (without options, without a plan b) our lives can yield the same results if not better. They stood firm, in the state of mind in which they had un-shakeable confidence and faith in God. Abraham when asked was ready to return his promised son, Isaac back to God not knowing that other provisions had already been made. Abraham didn't go to the undisclosed location with Isaac and an optional sacrifice. He knew that there was a reason God was asking for the son in which his descendants would spring forth.Now he very well could have asked a plethora of questions and refused to make a move until he understood. I'm sure nothing about this was making sense to him. However, he didn't seek to understand it, he moved and believed. God saw his heart, his desire to please Him. Therefore, He provided the ram. Noah, who was a farmer and aspiring entrepreneur. He was probably in the process or planting his very own vineyard so he could open a farm winery, but God interrupts his plans. He was asked to build an ark in the Summer's heat, if I may. The process of building a boat/ship/ark is a traditional craftsmanship which is a refined art delivered from master to apprentice. The skill is passed on by doing and often without a sketch or blueprint.In Genesis 6 and 7, God (the master) gave detailed instructions for the ark and Noah (the apprentice) obeyed. Why? He was in the habit of believing. Noah's habit affords us the opportunity to experience the brilliant beauty of the consequent rainbow today. Enoch's habit caused him to be caught up and transferred to heaven, so that he did not see death. SELF ANALYSIS: Is your faith failing or satisfactory?1. Like Abraham, has God ever asked you to sacrifice something he promised you with no explanation why and not knowing the end result?
2. Like Noah, has He ever wanted to interrupt your plan because He had need of you?
3. Just as Enoch did, He expects us to be "caught up". Get caught up in the habit of trusting Him, so that our faith grows increasingly faster than any giant/deathly circumstance we may face today. A firm mindset of faith influences a habit of faith. The testimonial results from that faith that will last for generations is the sum of those essential factors. Is your faith.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

July 9, 2009
At choir practice tonight did it seem easier? Well, it did as compared to the other nights. The notes came a little easier and I did not really feel the strain until I started getting a little tired. All I did today was concentrate on my breathing from low in my belly. Not just with my diaphragm but deep down in my lower stomach more than anything and I also concentrating on keeping less tension as possible in my throat area. I was visualizing how my larnyx was moving as well as making sure I had just enough breath to finish the phrase without all that backpressure tension in the throat. I was also remembering how to back off the volume. I had to remember that not everything needs to be song at high volume for all its worth. In other words to pace myself and also since I am not the only tenor up there, to use the other voices and that I did not have to try to outsing anyone. I also practiced on shutting up when I needed to as well. Also I remembered to do a warmdown which is just as important as a warmup such as lip trills or tongue trills in my case. I don't do lip trills very well. All these things helped me. My voice isn't cracky. I don't feel particularly hoarse. No pain. This was my best practice as of yet. So to all those contemplating the surgery, it does get better. Slow but better. Well gotta go. As always love somebody hug somebody and see I love you to God always. And as always check out the tidbit at the end of this message. Hope it is beneficial. See ya!

Make Room For Your Blessing Rev. James C. Matthews "Now Jabez called on the God of Israel, saying, "Oh that You would bless me indeed and enlarge my border, and that Your hand might be with me, and that You would keep {me} from harm that {it} may not pain me!" And God granted him what he requested." 1 Chronicles 4:10 Most people today are familiar with the Prayer of Jabez and how he dared to ask God to bless him indeed. Many of us may have memorized and even recited Jabez's prayer in hopes that God would likewise respond to our prayers and bless us in a like manner.However, I believe one of the major reasons many of our prayers have not been answered is because we have forgotten or simply do not understand a principle that Jabez understood. This principle is: "God blesses those who have prepared themselves to be blessed".When Jabez asked God to bless him indeed, he was asking God do something He nor anyone around him had experienced. He asked for something out of the ordinary and supernatural. Recognizing he did not have the capacity to handle such a blessing, He petitioned God to provide him with the necessary capacity by expanding his borders. Jabez said, God bless me indeed, but don't forget to correspondingly increase my ability to handle what You are going to do. This is the key to experiencing God's abundance in your life.Many of us have asked God to do something extra ordinary in our lives but we don't have the capacity to handle or properly manage what we've asked for. We've asked God to pour out rivers of blessing upon us but only have a cups capacity. If God were to give us what we've asked for much of it would be wasted. God will never give us something that we are not ready for.There may even be some who have been preparing themselves for expansion but have forgotten God in their preparation. You can't build a barn big enough to hold what God can pour out. Only God knows the measure and integrity of the container needed to possess His blessings.When God called Abraham and told him that he was going to multiply and bless him abundantly the first thing He told him was to move. God told him to move from his family and go to a place that He would show him. God told Abraham to move for two reasons:(1) It would remove him from the pagan influences of his family and society, and(2) to make room for the blessing that He had planned to give him.Abraham disobeyed God by bring his nephew Lot with him and the first recorded quarrel they had was not over money or theological differences - but space. God had blessed Abraham to the point that the land could not hold both of them. The reason the land could not hold both of them was because the land was given in proportion to Abraham's blessing. God blessed Abraham but also gave him the means and ability to possess and care for his blessing.What have you asked God to do in your life? Do you believe that God will answer you? Are your preparations adequate and in line with what you've asked Him for? Have you included God in your preparations? I believe if Jabez were here to share with us the key to experiencing abundance in our lives he would say: First, believe that God will bless you, and second, you must be prepared for your blessing before it will comes.Have you made room for your blessing?

Monday, July 6, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

July 6, 2009
Hi all, sorry again for being so late and not blogging every day. I sang with the mass choir again. Some songs were easier. Some songs up in my register not so easy. It is like there is a block right now in my throat that prevents me from singing with more volume. Maybe this is normal I think. I can almost feel my vocal cords not vibrating at a high enough speed to compensate. You ever heard someone playing the clarinet or sax and it sounds like their reed is splintering or flayed? Now that flutter sound you hear? Right now that is what it sounds and feels like my vocal cords are doing right now. But I must admit, it is much better than just after my first week of not saying anything and attempting to make a note. So I am heading in the right direction. I had said now that is was July I would try to make 2 practices a week trying to get ready for our choir day except now it looks like we are not going to have choir day. Now my plans have changed. I don't have that goal to look forward to now. But there is something else on the horizon, a concert we will be involved in but it isn't until August. So what do I do now? Do I continue with 1 day a week practices until the middle of July or start with 2 practices now? Do I practice every weekend with the ensemble or every other week? Decisions, decisions. But I know this, I don't have no other choice but to depend on God first to encourage and to heal, then my wife second for encouragement. Well that is the latest update. Hold God close people. C ya but before I go, let me encourage you all with a post I found. Hope it is helpful!

Fulfill God's Plan For Your MarriageGary & Barbara Rosberg
Are you lacking spiritual intimacy in your marriage? Not sure? Take a look at some of the signs spiritual intimacy may be missing from your relationship:
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1. You may experience conflict in many areas.2. You may feel incomplete.3. You may lack a firm foundation for your marriage commitment.4. You may lack boundaries for guarding your marriage.
Spiritual intimacy occurs when you as husband and wife surrender your lives and relationship to the Lord. You grow together spiritually when you live out your marriage relationship according to God's ways and aim to please him in all things.
But spiritual intimacy isn't available to just anyone. Spiritual intimacy is an ingredient available only to those who have a personal relationship with God through Jesus Christ and who live to please him. When you are joined with another Christian in marriage, you have the wonderful privilege of seeking spiritual intimacy in your marriage. When husbands and wives are growing in their vertical relationships (individually with God), their horizontal relationship (between the two of them) comes together as well.
Spiritual growth is the job of both husbands and wives as individuals. But spiritual intimacy happens when you experience God together and share what you have learned. So what's stopping you and your mate from growing together spiritually? You may be experiencing one of these roadblocks to spiritual intimacy:
* "I don't have time for spiritual things. We have more pressing issues right now."* "I'm afraid God will expect more than we can do."* "My spouse isn't interested in spiritual matters."
You may not realize the power spiritual intimacy can have on your relationship with your spouse. We often describe it this way: Emotional and physical intimacy ignite the rocket in your marriage, but spiritual intimacy fires the afterburners and gets you into orbit! Emotional and physical attraction is what drew you together, but the spiritual connection is what keeps you together. Just take a look at some of the benefits of spiritual intimacy in a marriage:
* It empowers celebrating love.* It allows you to connect at the deepest level.* It links you with God's purposes and plans for you.* It allows you to bless each other with God's love.* It brings your deepest values and desires into agreement.* It opens the door to the deepest levels of communication.* It empowers your marriage to survive.* It connects you to a supportive body of fellow disciples.
So how can you and your mate begin to grow spiritually as a couple?
Here are some of our recommendations:
Schedule daily times to read God's Word. Make an appointment with God, and keep it.
Share the Word. Talk together about what God is teaching you.
Pray aloud together. You can't get any more intimate than praying together as a couple. If you haven't prayed with your spouse before, start slowly - but start today.
Hold hands and pray. Joining your hands as well as your hearts and voices as you pray is a great way to draw close.
Study together. Do a Bible study or a devotional book together, or work through a study independently and then discuss it together. Our book Renewing Your Love is a thirty-day devotional designed to help couples study a passage together, reflect on its meaning for their marriages, pray together, and practice ways to love each other more deeply.
Make Sundays relaxed. Plan ahead so that going to church is not a hectic event. Replace the race to church with relaxation and heart preparation. If you have children, you and your spouse can share the responsibility for getting them ready and in their classes before you sit down for worship.
Be accountable to each other. Your spiritual relationship will grow deep if you allow yourselves to share and receive correction from each other.
Encourage accountability to others. Help each other find an accountability group - men for him, women for her - that will serve as a sounding board and spiritual support. Choose groups that will ultimately strengthen your commitment to each other, not weaken it.
Spend time with other couples. Choose wisely. Link up with couples who are intent on developing strong marriages and have boundaries.
Find mentors. Ask a mature Christian couple with a healthy marriage to mentor you as a couple.
Speak up. When you see your spouse take steps of spiritual growth, compliment him or her about it. Cheer your spouse son to more of the same.
Seek God's will for your life. Start by telling God that you want to do life his way. Read Scripture, and heed the advice of more mature Christians in discovering what it means to live out God's will.
Teach your children to follow God. One of the greatest responsibilities of your shared commitment to Christ is passing on your faith to your children. Strategize together about how to make faith vital for each of them, and act on your plans.
Count your blessings. Set aside time to thank God of everything he has done for you.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

July 1, 2009
Well, peeps, it has been more than a week since I have blogged here. Let's see. Let's play catchup. Since then and I may have mentioned this, I have sung with the male chorus, and have participated in a few practices. That kinda sums it up. I wasn't too proud of those times but I have to keep reminded myself it takes time to regain what was lost especially the way we practice. Have to push some, but not too hard at one time. I have sung with the ensemble group. I had forgotten how high some if not most of the songs could be. Did well on a few songs. Some songs I could tell the voice wasn't quite there. I literally squawked on one song and my bro beside me used a hand gestures to tell me to back off trying to hit the high note. Actually hitting the high note wasn't the problem. It was the staying up there in the highs constantly that was the problem. I think I hid my disappointment well except from my wife. She said things will come and I have to believe that. I have to admit something though. My , well, my range is pretty good before all this happened. I could sing some low soprano, alto, high tenor as well as low tenor, and some high bass. Got to thinking I was something special after being held down so long at the other church I was at who would not let me sing like that. Maybe that is why all this happened to tone me down some. If that is the case, I am glad it happened for that purpose, not for the layoff. Now I seek to regain that with the purpose of singing in what ever key is needed at the time for a song. I am coming back but it is slow. Missing the power and some highs. Now I am gearing up to go to choir prac tomorrow. It will be the mass choir first then men afterwards. I will govern myself accordingly. May not want to do men because men may not sing until sometime in the middle or last of July. We will see. Well time for me to prac a little bit on my vocal exercises. C ya and as always love somebody teach somebody hug somebody in the name of Jesus!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

As earth ebbs to and fro in the eternal darkness
Securing all that it has possession of
As light fades to and fro tickling that darkness with its' truth
Securing its' presence due to the power of the Almighty
As rain seeks to nourish all living things, so the Father's blessings does the heart
Sun shines with a smile, glint of His eye shines
Darkness finds no place, yet survives per chance
Many victories upon many victories give hope but with one dark blow, only one
Noir finds a home, it is within this home there is a spark, one spark
When if ignited shall spread and immasculate the darkness til it has once again withdrawn
Into its' nasty little corner, seeking openings upon openings to rear its' ugly head
It is there Solomon says vanity is folly, oh vanity of vanities
Not realizing that behind every shadow, every dark cloud, there is a silver lining
Solomon only saw however the darkness seemed to loom no matter how many times
The light shone in his presence, no matter how many times he felt the love
Such are the hearts of men who love hard, whether God, loved ones, or friends
The nature of the beast, 666, they call it, difficult to recognize, yet easy to see once one's head
Lifts like Gideon's men, some who drank with their hands while looking around
And some who drank with their mouths in the river never seeing the dangers
As the dawn draws to a close in the sunset, as stars light the sky, one realizes that darkness
Has no hold, light is ever present, light is every felt
In the twinkling of that star, the glint in our Father's eye
Oh heart pick thyself up, cast thyself outward, return inward to light up the body
Erasing sorrows, woes, complications, then send yourself outward again
Seeking whom you may devour, enveloping and nourishing, healing and saving,
Light devours dark, victory destroys defeats, love encompasses and swallows hate,
Better dreams come, better dreams come, thank you Lord, thank you God,
Show Yourself true, show Yourself mighty, show Yourself............strong

What has this to do with life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery? Maybe nothing. Maybe some song somewhere. Just maybe....just maybe...... just maybe......

Monday, June 22, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi All,
Well, I sung for the first time Sunday. Wasn't quite ready or anything. My wife asked me would I and she thought it was a good idea. So I did. I was very nervous to say the least. I also knew my voice wasn't all there for all the songs. Some of the songs were high up into the tenor range for male chorus almost crossing over into high tenor/soprano. I did okay the first song. Voice got tight and tired though. I slipped out the side though after the song because the high blood pressure medication and that water pill makes me go and I mean go. When it comes, a'int no trying to hold it. As I was crossing our church breezeway, I heard them doing a second song. What! Was this a concert or something?! Well, still no turning back now. I gotta go before I up and went. lolol As I came out of the bathroom I took time to look at the hallway monitor and looking at the male chorus. Somehow it did not sound good coming out of the hallway monitors. By the time I got back to the choir stand, they were just finishing that song and going into another one. I joined in that one, my voice feeling renewed from the rest. I made it through the singing. Neither was I proud or negative about myself. I was highly critical though looking at all my weak points. I did make it throught and that was the main idea. Still, I did okay. I will do better next time though. My voice was sore though. I had a raspiness that took a while to go away. I did the warmdowns suggested to me by the the vocal therapist. I never realized as important as a warmup was, the warmdown is even more important. Almost like not doing a cool down after lifting weights to prevent cramping and stuff. The warmdown can be the same as the warm up with lip trills being the majority of it.
Today , I went to choir practice. I was alittle apprehensive but I am glad I went. Today was a little different. My voice, I believe at least, came out strong for the majority of the songs. I was so happy, I cried for a bit. Everyone thought something was wrong, but everything was right. Can I get a Hallelujah? Can I get a Amen? I stopped though when I felt my voice getting tight which was around the last song we practiced. Still I am taking it slow. I doubt I go to practice Thursday. I had set a plan to attend one prac at week for the month of June, then go 2 prac a week for most of July. I had a target of singing by choir day, but.......we don't know when choir day will be. I made sure I warmed down the best I could and my voice isn't so sore. Still, I can tell my highs aren't there yet. Well, gotta go. Gotta go. But before I go, I reminded of the angels gathering around the throne of God singing praises and Hallelujahs to God. I have the goal of our voices being so good that the angels around the throne step back and fold their wings covering themselves and the sons and daughters of God take their place before the throne singing and glorifying the most High in all His glory. I want to be one of those voices. Well, gotta go for real this time. As always treat and love someone as if the glory of God inside them because it can be if they accepted or will accept Jesus. Amen!

Friday, June 19, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

June 19, 2009
Hi all! Whew what a time I am having! It's all good though. Been having a lil struggle with faith sometimes. I don't like that. I want to be like Stephen! Full of faith at all times! But I guess being low in faith at times leads me to appreciate God even more. I am convinced on definition of hell besides being a physical place is being away and out of God's presence. I feel like I am in hell when my faith is low and I can't feel God's presence. Now I remember what Anthony Valary said in one of Yolanda Adam's points of power shows. He said God is every present, He is always there. Just because you can't feel or see Him or the things He is doing doesn't mean He isn't there. Don't let your problems get so big that it blocks Him. He is there. That means to me if there is something in the way, even if I have to crawl up what ever is blocking just to get just a peek of God, a peek at our Daddy is better than no peek at all. Also means that since I know there is something blocking my vision of Him, to keep knocking and tearing down that obstacle until I see our heavenly Father again. I may be tired after that and can't move for a while but it will be worth it.
Now, I had my second choir practice Thursday. It was somewhat easier. There were times that the hyperthyroidism flared up, making me tired. Also going up and down the stairs letting people in the building was making me tired, but overall practice was ok. I hit my notes better. My endurance was down but that's okay for now. I went in anyway just going to sing and practice breathing and not worrying about notes. So it was ok. It was good being in the choir stand for mass choir practice. I stuck around for men's practice. I sang minimally while sitting down. I had reached my limit for the night. I have not decided when I will sing on a Sunday with the mass choir. Don't really know the newer songs they have been going over, but neither did I when I first started singing with the choir lol. We will see.
Today, I am at my inlaws house. My wife is out celebrating with our sister Vanessa. I know they are having a good time. When they get together they can be quite giggly like high schoolers lol. I drove the girls here after letting Gigi out at the restaurant. I unloaded the car, spoke Mom and Pop, ate a little something, went upstairs, saw the bed and said I will only take a lil nap of maybe 20 minutes. I woke up a hour and half later. loloolol I needed it. I wasn't feeling that well. The ol thyroid started flaring up on the trip up here. I was teasing with someone earlier that I know how a woman's heat flash feels, because one of the symptoms of a mild thyroid storm is heat flash, heart palpatations, and nervousness. Whew! lolololol Well gotta go. And as always let go and let God! You go Dwayne Woods! lolololololll

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

I am very tired today. Very very tired! NO energy what so ever. I am very sleepy. Today, I attempted to apply manual resistance to exercises a client was doing. I do it all the time easily. Except today, it was not so easy. I experienced such painful burning in my arms resisting the client. My body feels like it is falling apart right now. Man!!!! This is something different here. I use to believe my Father that I am healed and the hurt is going away. That was on the physical nature with pulled muscles and hurting bones, but this internal endocrine stuff is something different. I know He is able, that He doesn't want me to hurt, that He is able, willing, and will heal and in fact has already healed despite the fact I don't see it yet. (that is what faith is isn't it), but in the meantime, I HURT!!!!!!! and is so tired!!!!!!!!! I did not even feel like doing my vocal exercises today. Just trying to survive the day. While at a stoplight, I went to sleep! Man!!!! Oh well, got to keep on keeping on as the old folks say. On a bright note, I remembered something I forgot to put in about what my vocal therapist said at the last session. She told me she would rather I don't hold back anymore and go ahead and sing out. It is much better and would be less strain on my voice. Don't worry about sounding whimpy. I will bring myself back up to speed. She also said I have an excellent vocal range. That made me feel good. My wife told me that way before this though before all the vocal problems. (smile). Well , gotta go. And as always believe God and believe Him only!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

June 16th, 2009
Hi All! At lot has happened since my last blog entry. I mean alot. If it wasn't for Jesus, I probably won't be able to bear all these things. Each thing that happened has hit me in areas that mean the most to me. What else am I talking about besides the vocal cord surgery? I am glad you ask. Let me fill you in on a few things. A few days ago I was at a client's house. I felt something crawling on the back of my neck. I swiped my hand there and whoa! I got this awful pain in the back of my neck. I quickly grabbed it and threw it to the floor. It it with a noticeable sound. The client said that looked like a spider, and briefly it did before it rolled under the table. He moved the table and crushed it with the tip of his cane. It was all a bloody mess by then. Later on though on the drive home, the my face started became numb, my left arm became numb with a some tingling. I drove back to Wilson not stopping at job site but straight home. I took some loratadine and sat on the couch. My children were playing putting a blanket over me and the pillow kinda crazy behind my head attempting to take a picture and I didn't move, I couldn't move! I felt numb all over. I got up, went and told my wife who suggested I go to the Immediate Care facility. I drove there in a daze. By the time I got there I was numb and had a buzzing feeling. Long story short, I received 2 shots, a benadry shot and some other shot, and a script for some prednisone. Also there my blood pressure was 180/110! They did blood work in which the majority of it was good. I had to wait for the rest of the results due Monday. I went home and slept. I went back to the Immediate Care in the morning to retake my blood pressure. It was 181/117! They gave me a script for a beta blocker high blood pressure medication and a note to be out for work for the day. Man! All this from a spider bite is all I thought! That was the first thing. Now Monday, I went to work. I went to the Immediate Care for the rest of my test results before heading out of town. They gave me a copy and said my Thyroid was out of whack. One of the readings was too low. Originally the nurse told me I had hypothyroidism, so I got my wife on the case finding out more about that. Later the Doc called me and said the nurse had made a mistake when in fact I had hyperthyroidism. I again got my wife on the job. Every symptom mentioned described me! So it was my hyperactive thyroid causing high blood pressure as well as other problems. I was happy to hear it in a way because now I had knew what was going on with me and now I know what to fight against. My wife and I suspect I had been this way for a while. What has this to do with singing? Well just one of the effects of hyperthyroidism is mucus buildup and dry throat no matter how much water I drink. That will affect my singing immensely. Also the "brain fog" characteristic of the endocrine problem. I used to think it was kinda funny when I tried to think of something and couldn't, or I would get my words twisted. I used to get discouraged when I could hear the words that someone was saying, but in my mind it was as if they were speaking latin. That will affect me learning and remembering songs. But like I said, now I know what to fight against. Part of the treatment is drugs which have very nasty side effects in some people. Only way to find out is to take them if they will have side effects on you. Do I want to risk that? I think not! Also there is a radiotope injection that would kill the thyroid. Then I would be hypothyroidic. Then it is medication for the rest of my life. Nasty side effects? Yes! Take them? I think not! Then there is thyroid removal. I have seen people with their thyroids removed. Like zombies. Got that route? I think not! All these will be a last resort. I am going to find and try natural means first, like diet, exercise, herbs. Now if they don't work, then and only then will I entertain the other treatments. Well, I gave you all alot this time. Tired fingers now, please I feel a brain fog coming on. Yes, I can tell. But before I go, let me give you some symptoms and signs of hyperthyroidism . C all of you all later. Keep God close and his commandments even closer.

Signs and symptoms of Hyperthyrodism

Palpitations
Heat intolerance
Nervousness
Insomnia
Breathlessness
Increased bowel movements
Light or absent menstrual periods(women)
Fatigue
Fast heart rate
Trembling hands
Weight loss
Muscle weakness
Warm moist skin
Hair loss
Staring gaze
Chest pain

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

And just when I thought I was getting things back on track with my voice, only to have it derailed for a short time by a spider bite!!! Yes, I had an allergic reaction to a spider bite. Yep, numb lips and face, numb arm with the tingles, all that. Blood pressure shooting up!!!!! Very high indeed! Nonetheless, I did not feel like practicing any kind of vocal exercises that day. So now I am taking high blood pressure medication (of which I don't know if my blood pressure was high before the spider bite) or at least I couldn't tell. But I believe the spider bite allergic reaction really jacked it up. Between the blood pressure meds and the water pill, my throat is very very dry. Even when talking my voice cracks, so you can imagine how it will be when I attempt to sing. Something else that has to be overcomed, but with God's help and my wife's help I will. I will, I will!!!!!! Starting,,well, there is no time like the present huh? Right now, All this weekend, we have been celebrating my wife's birthday. You may even say it has been an all week thing starting from last weekend. Happy Birthday Gigi!!!! I love you! Well, what does this have to do with my voice? Everything! If it wasn't for her, I prob would not be even singing. You see at the other church I was in, I was thinking about stopping forever singing, but now being a part of a singing family,makes me want to sing. You understand. Well, it's late and gotta go. When the prayers and praises go up, blessings come down. You understand where I am going with this don't you? (smile) Well, see ya!!!!!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

June 9, 2009
Hi All! What's the latest? Well, I will tell you what's the latest! I had my first choir practice since my surgery last night. I was only able to do about 20-25 minutes of stop and go singing though. I fatigued rather quickly. Sang part of a song that started in my low range and without much effort. That felt somewhat good. Then when the song started heading to the upper end of my register and I needed more power, the power and note just wasn't there. It just wasn't there. I did not try to force it to see if I could do it. I was not going to do that. But I was disappointed though. I wanted to be hitting my upper notes at least in a limited fashion. I gave myself (If I had to be graded) a "D". Gigi told me why don't I start at an "A" because at least I came back to practice and tried. She is right though. It is just I expect so much out of my voice. I guess I don't want to be disappointed or a disappointment. Gigi said she felt proud of me. That! makes me feel so good. So I will keep trying. I will just have to work that much harder. Now, I am still going to go to practice but I will take it a step at a time. I prob won't go no more this week. Prob go once a week for June and increase some next month. Well, am I helping anyone out there? I believe I am helping me. C ya! God bless ya! Keep the faith faithfully and I will keep it with you!

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi All!
Today was just a Saturday! I mean, we had events today. Children had choir practice. My wife had ensemble practice. I did go, I mean stay since I took the children to practice. I listened to them practice a few songs. Of course, I wanted to sing, but I am not going to even try until tomorrow night at practice. Then we went to a birthday celebration for our Reverend Treena Canady. It was pretty good. She was happy having friends and family around. Then Reverend Alethia started singing 60's and 70's songs ranging from Smoky Robinson to Luther Vandross. Everyone was singing except for me. I felt kinda bad not singing. I can't shake it. I love singing. And when I can't do something I love to do, I feel kinda depressed which messes with my thinking some. Oh come on! Like you haven't felt like this before! I mean, come on now, we are Christians who believe in the most high God, but we are human and sometimes we do get weak, and every now and again we have a little doubt and fear running through our minds and hearts. Just be real. I'm just saying. But I find the key is to let that doubt and fear be few and far between, remember that God has not given us the spirit of fear but of power, love, and a sound mind. Remember that we can do all things with Him. Remember we need that power working through us. Remember that weeping only last for a night, but joy comes in the morning when you wake up! And use the fear and doubt to be like little kids depending on their parents for comfort and security except we depend on God for our comfort and security. See, I just talked myself to a victory within myself. I hope it did the same of you. Gotta go. Love you all. C ya!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi All,
What's that? You say I am getting slack with my posting everyday? Like George Washington supposedly said, I cannot tell a lie. lololololl Yes I have been slack. Forgive me. Now, here what is going on. I had my therapy visit the other day, yeh the day I didn't post. lololol Like I was saying I had my therapy visit the other day. It was cut short and can be rescheduled because Dana was feeling under the weather and could not sing with me. But while I was there, she tested my singing range going up a full octave. I held my own until I started getting to the top of my range. She said I was staying steady with my notes up til that point. I started feeling a strain when I reached my top notes. She gave me some hints. She said it is not all about how big a breath I take but the relationship between the air, diaphragm, lungs, throat, everything as a whole, as a unit. She had me before I sang the note, to exhale some air. This would have me to relax my throat and ease the tension. She said this will be important because the higher up I go in my notes, the air pressure becomes so great behind the vocal folds that it could re injure my vocal cords and cause problems i.e. nodules. She had me sing a part of a song. It felt strange, kinda heavy in my vocal cords because I haven't sung in a while. She had me sing the song using the syllable "Bla" which did ease some of the tension, well actually the majority of it. She suggested I practice this along with releasing some air before the note. She also said I could sing in my low range for now, and not sing high full voice. Whew! A lot to remember right now, right? Well, I well get it. Believe you me. Okay, now we are all caught up. What am I feeling? Sort of relieved I can sing now even if it is in the low range. Sad because alot of songs we sing are in the high range. Afraid because I don't want to hurt my throat again. Determined because I can see myself singing in choir day. All of these things and more are what I am thinking and feeling. Complex huh? Well gotta go. C ya when I c ya! God loves you! Always remember that!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi All,
Just breaking out of the box straight past go with a question. Which question? Why am I so nervous about my vocal therapy visit tomorrow? Why? I will tell you why. It is the first time I would have sung anything in at least a month after my surgery. I feel so unsure of my voice right now. I feel as if I am doing a test in the eleventh grade or something. It other words, I am just so nervous about what I will sound like. I haven't even heard my singing voice since the surgery. So I am nervous! But you know what it is really? Deep down I am a perfectionist. Before my surgery, before all the vocal problems I was a perfectionist I think. I was harder on myself than anyone. I didn't like it when I would do the occasional squeaks. Absolutely hated it when I thought I sounded off key on even one note! And when I was out of breath trying to sustain a note, I was totally angry! Yep, Type A when it comes to singing which is different from my other persona lololol. In a way it is okay. It meant I cared about sounded good and not wanting to disrupt someone's spirit or mess up the choir. Wanted our Minister of Music to be pleased you know. That part is good. The part that is bad is being so critical that even thinking about singing badly made me not want to sing sometimes, thinking about being an embarassment, even sometimes when my wife wanted to sing at home. Sometimes it seemed like everyone would sound good but me. I know it is a trick of the enemy in thinking that, but I did think that way. Like all eyes are on me. But I promised after my surgery that I wouldn't be that way anymore. Starting tomorrow at the vocal therapy session which will be my last session. What am I thinking now? I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me according to the power which work through me. So there I said it. Now that I said it, the word has to go forth. Well, take care, I will talk with you all later. I will let you know how tomorrow goes. Oh man, I have to come up with a song to take with me and sing. See ya!!!!!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi All, haven't been here for a bit. Busy, busy, busy! Well, what has been going on since the last I have talked? Well, I can tell you my voice is getting stronger. My speaking voice that is. I can tell it. I still have a tendency to go hoarse some when I try to speak above alot of background noise. Soooo I have a tendency to keep my mouth shut. (smile) I am still not yelling. If you call me from a distance, I will come to you versus answering you loudly. That may stick with me even after my voice is fully healed talking and singing wise. Been doing my exercises except been modifying them to fit the day. Instead of doing them all at one time, I may to 1 or 2 of them at a time. Seems to work. Not sure if that is what my VT Dana would truly want me to do, but I am just trying to adapt. I believe she would want to see me do something if only a little bit. Went to a funeral yesterday. My brother William's uncle passed on. Sad for him I could tell. He said it was a little easier. He has had quite a few family members pass on over the course of a few years. I sat in the choir stand because he has a big family. I was a little nervous. Remember I feel kinda bad not being up there singing with my group. But you know what? It let me know how much I missed it. It was fun. Had a chance to observe some things like people moving in too many directions and not together. lololol But it was fun. Still, I had to keep my mouth shut. Almost, I mean almost, let out a note. lolololol Now today we have church and again I will be sitting in the audience. I have one more vocal therapy session this week in which she will have me singing a song. Do I take a chance on singing early this morning, I mean like the morning hymn or do I wait? I kinda want to know what I would sound like at this point but I don't want to go against orders or risk scarring of any kind. Oops! I think I just answered that question. I won't sing until it is time. So another day of keeping my mouth shut from singing. Easier to be obedient now due to having to stay quiet for so long. They say it takes 21 days to form a habit. I got that beat. lololol Bye all, C ya, arividerci, au revoir, Au tout te ler, until next time

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi All!
Been a lil slack lately keeping up with my blog. 2 days is a long time. Today, found myself talking a bit more than usual. Found myself getting hoarse sooner today also. Wasn't a good feeling. Still finding cell phone use to be hard. I never realized all the background noise that gets amplified while using a cell. Having to talk over the the noise is difficult right now. Tried to do some of my vocal exercises. Gave up, got discouraged. My throat is too tired to do them tonight. Just did a few lip trills. Even they were difficult. Hopefully tomorrow I will do better. Can't lose sight of my goal. Something weird happened. I ate dinner. Everything seemed fine. Then I noticed when I swallowed it felt like there were some loose stitches or something in my throat. I had difficulty swallowing. This couldn't be possible I am thinking. I don't know if they did the dissolvable stitches or what but I wouldn't think I would be able to feel anything like that. I ate some bread, drank some liquids to try to get over it. Right now, things feel okay. Kinda scared me though. Well, just wanted to keep you all in the loop. Take care, God bless, use the love of God as your base. Bye now!

Monday, May 25, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 25, 2009
Hi All!
Well, another day passing away. Kinda overdid it today some. Some clients required more talking to to get things right, cell phone use was getting out of hand, not to mention talking at the dealership over all that machine noise. So when I got home, I was a little gurgly, plus my head was hurting from the strain. Had to take some medication and chill for a while. The absolutely tasty salmon and rice with peas my wife cooked sure helped ease the pain, let me tell you. Then I went to practice my vocal exercises. They were difficulty. My vocal cords still don't have the snap yet, but they will. The exercises leave me sweating, lololol. These exercises I did today were on a cd made for me. Singing from high to low, low to high using the "ol" sound thru pursed lips. Kinda sounds like a plan taking off. lolol. Sustaining the "e" sound for a long as possible, then using the "ol" sound up the scale c, d,e,f, and g. All these exercises were to be performed twice, 2 times a day. My throat is tired now, but my endurance and power have to be built up. Whew! hard work, but I love it! Well, Just wanted all to know what I did today. Stay strong, stay in the Lord, stay in love with the Lord! Bye now!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 24, 2009
Hi all! Happy Sunday to ya! lololol Another joyous Sunday. Church was excellent! It is the Theatre of the South series at our church, ya know. Church was filled with people! Wonderful! I could see our Pastor grinning from ear to past his ear. lololololl The choir sung very well! My baby sung great!!! I was biting my lip wanting to sing! A hard task seeing as it looked,( I knew it was), very fun up there. Some were getting blessed in their soul singing, and some by hearing the songs. It was wonderful! Again, the background noise was a bit too much for me trying to talk over it. I am adept now at being able to tell when things are too loud for me to talk over it. I sound like I am gurgling sort of, almost like an accumulation of mucus is forming. It is a raspy sort of talking you know what I mean? Now church is over. I am home with Gianna. Nessa went with Gigi to Fayetteville. Gianna is rebelling against us some. Told a lie that she had done her homework packet when in fact she hasn't done any of it. That is not good! Now she is down stairs. Told her not to turn on tv, use cellphone, or computer until her homework was finished. She did not listen, but stomped around saying alot of things under her breath. The prob with that is I can hear it very well. I have a hearing deficit in one of my ears. I guess that makes the other one stronger. So I can hear her. And if I tell everything that Gianna says, her little behind would be always raw. (sigh) Anyway, I took the internet connection away from one computer, I shut down one tv. Now I hear another tv on. I can't yell at her, simply because I can't. And I am not going to disconnect every tv in the house. Stress, I am trying to avoid because I can feel my throat tightening up and that is not good from a healing standpoint for me. I am always trying to protect the girls and help them out. I doubt they will ever appreciate that because sometimes they sure don't appreciate it now. Remember I said I could hear pretty well at times. I hear some of the things they say under their breath about me sometimes. But heh, I am suppose to be relaying things about my vocal cords right? Right! I was just venting alittle. Well I am keeping quiet until Gigi gets home. I may practice my vocal exercises but for the main, keeping quiet. Well, talk to you later. Oh? How am I feeling? Like July when I can start singing again is eons away. Try to be and and get as close to Jesus. To be even a part of His shadow is a blessing. Bye!

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Oh the sneezing the sneezing the SNEEZING!!!!!!!! The sneezing hurts my throat because of the pressure built up behind it. That was something the vocal therapists did not want me to do alot of, but sometimes I can stop it, other times, well, it's just too strong to stop. It is times like this that worry me, that I will do some sort of damage, that my throat isn't healed all the way and I may damage the suture area on the vocal cord. It is also times like this I have to trust that God is protecting my throat during my sneezing episodes, that He who has began a good work in me won't stop working in, on , and through me until the work is finished. I am talking a little stronger though. My wife got on me last night! Why? Because I was breaking my talk limit protocol. Over the last couple of days, it has been hectic and due to varying situations, I had to talk longer than normal or use the cell phone when there was alot of background noise. Those are the times it really hurt because I had to elevate my volume just to be heard. Whew! I can't wait for this to be over. Still, when it is, I will pay more attention to keeping my voice healthy from overuse and strain. Alrighty then! Check with all of you later! Hey, all of you really want to be blessed? Check out my wife's blog , Victoriousg. Always push forward is the name of her blog.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi All
Sorry I am late with this blog. I skipped yesterday for how don't know why. Well, my recovery is on schedule as it should be. My throat was scoped but only for my peace of mind. The vocal therapist could already tell everything was good when I did lip trills from low to high without much cracking considering my vocal cord is still somewhat inflexible. We went over a vocal exercise routine plus some vocal warmups. She said the vocal warmups were for everytime I sing after I am fully recovered as well as for right now. Let's see if I can give you a rundown of it.
1.) Tongue Trills
A. 5 note scales up and down {1,2,3,4,5,4,3,2,1} Get louder as you get higher and make sure the last note is the same as the first.
B. Go up by 1/2 steps up and down {1,3,5,3,1} Get louder as you get higher and make sure the last note is the same as the first.
C. Go from low to high in octaves
2.) Go up a scale on the syllable "huh". Make the syllables short
3.) Hum 2-3 songs (any kind of song) on the "NG" sound. Don't hold back and make it as obnoxious as possible.

Hope this can help someone besides me. Well gotta go. Check with y'all later. Love somebody, hug somebody, it may be the only source of affection someone may get that day.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 19, 2009
Hi All, how is everyone? Another day has gone by and my voice is coming along. I still get hoarse after so many hours of talking but it is getting stronger. I still have to be cautious though. I have a doc visit with my vocal therapist tomorrow. I hope they scope my throat. I have been as nervous as a cat locked in a dog pen. I need reassurance everything is still going along like it suppose to and that things look the way it suppose to at this point. I have something else going on though. I have been having the beginnings of a cough going on. I don't know if it is a cold coming on, my allergies, or my sinus draining down into my throat. I take my medicine, my "O" medicine and my zantac. That suppose to stop the drainage. I will find out tomorrow. I gotta tell ya though. Sometimes no matter how hard I try not to cough, no matter how much water I drink to try not to cough, it still comes and sometimes I stifle a pretty hard cough, sometimes it comes out. That is why I need reassurance. Another thing. Since part of my recovery involves not drinking any caffeinated drinks, I don't really want coffee anymore. I guest that adage about forming a habit comes into play. You know,it takes 21 days to form a habit or break a habit. So you know how I am feeling. Nervous about tomorrow. But sometimes nervousness with me is good. It means I care about a situation when I am nervous. Notice I said nervous not scared. How's my faith in God. Like Tye Tribbett says I don't have no other choice but to trust (You) Him. But that's because He is so good and so true. For my peace of mind, for my peace in spirit and soul, I have to trust Him. He is the ultimate source of peace. Well, I will talk to all of you tomorrow. I will let you know how my doc visit goes. C ya! Love someone hug someone, maybe the only show of love or hug they get.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 17,2009
Hi All! It's me again! Your friendly neighborhood blogger! lololol What's shaking? Oh, that's an old school term isn't it? Well today, I went to church! Service was good! My wife singing was excellent as usual. The entire singing was so good I had to bite my tongue to stop from attempting to sing. Trying so hard to be obedient to MD orders. Afterwards, it started to rain. I don't know if I overdid talking or it was the damp weather or both, but I became hoarse. Even my wife noticed I was talking better in the early morning hours. Went to Fike high school for a concert one of my girls was in. Found it hard to talk over the background noise so I stopped or either I talking directly into Gigi's ear. Afterwards we went to Fuji's to eat. I got some hot tea. That and the spices in the food helped my voice actually. I wasn't so hoarse afterwards. It let me know though , that I still had a ways to go before my voice would be starting to resemble my old voice. Of course I hope for better. Still today really got to me because I really wanted to sing for the Theatre of the South program at our church. Well, there's always next year. Everyone at church asked how I was doing. It makes me happy and sad. Happy to know people care and ask how I am, but sad because it makes me think about it everytime they ask. Man! Well, time for bed and um er um, another full week. C ya! Remember keep God first in all you do and all you do after that still keep Him second, third, fourth, etc.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 16, 2009
Hi All, how is all of you doing? Well, another day is about to come to a close. Nothing much today. I noticed while waking up my throat is extra dry. Guess it will be like that from now on possibly, yes, I said possibly. But nothing a little liquids water, juice, tea decaffienated of course, can't handle. I did my vocal exercises of course. Now, my wife has gone to a function at Hunt High School. I elected not to go partly because it really hurts me to be in the audience instead of the choir stand and because two of my girls suppose to be cleaning their rooms so they can have company over. Don't look like that is going to happen. Oh well. But I, um, I am going to take care of my voice. It is a day like today that let's you know just how disciplined and serious one is, you know. You know though? I am looking at a Farrah Fawcett true documentary and story. She is having a losing battle with cancer but she has continual courage and a fight inside her that won't quit. Her faith in God is strong. This let's you know that no matter how much how tough you have it, someone has it that much tougher. See ya! Take care! And praise God continously

Friday, May 15, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 15, 2009
Hi All, how is everyone? Today, today, today. I have been to my clients houses those who were blind and couldn't read or houses it was so smoky in them I could not breathe and it irritated my throat. But today today TODAY! I went to a few houses where my clients were hard of hearing. Can you imagine trying to talk loud when you can't talk loud and you know by talking loud you may injure a not healed vocal cord? And not to mention the family member who you thought could help was hard of hearing as well? Physical therapy is a talking profession but not a yelling one! Man!!! So now my throat is very tired. I am hoarse which isn't good at all. I have been keeping quiet in the house. I told my wife my voice was stressed today. She understood as well as my other family members. I am glad today is Friday. NO work for the weekend means I can rest my voice. Now that is another plight anyone who has to have the surgery has to put up with. You don't have to be doing therapy to be around those who can't hear well. You could be around people who have to have a lot of background noise and you are trying to talk loud enough to be heard. Not good for those who just had this surgery. So take this into account as well. One of my compadres sent me a text this morning. He said, "I need help!!!" I said with what? He said,"the tenor section!" lolololol I do miss being there but not until I am cleared by my therapist. Well see you all. Just wanted to open the window and let you in on what I am going through. C ya and have a good weekend!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi all!
How are you all doing? Well, today was a day. All my clients spread out, lots of driving but lots of quiet time between clients. I get a chance to rest my voice. The smoky houses are really getting to me, irritating my throat though. I try just to give directions to the clients for the exercises. Occasionally, I have to give encouragement. I can feel when I have been talking for too long. All my facial and muscles around my throat feel really tired. I do my lip trills in between clients and sometimes twice if it is a long ride. I am starting to really miss singing. It is messing with my psyche. I never knew how much I truly loved to praise God through song. I really didn't. To see my wife go to choir practice, to not be singing with her especially and my other choir mates is really hard. To go to church and not be able to fully express myself in voice even saying Hallelujah is really hard. I am chomping at the bit to get back singing. It saddens me, that is why I don't really attend choir practices. And it saddens me to hear my tenor section not being up there with them. I miss doing solos. I just miss something terrible. lolol But it is not that funny. My wife tells me to be patient. I thought I had a lot of patience but this takes the cake. Yet I know I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. But I am still human. I miss it, I miss it, I miss it!!!!!! Someone even suggested maybe God wants me to gain strength in other venues such as increase my bible study. That very well maybe true. Well, check you all later. Have a great peaceful blessful Christful day!!!!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

May 12, 2009
Hi all! Latest updates. I had a Doc visit today. I went in, they did another scope. The lesion that was on my right vocal cord had cleared up which made me very happy. My left vocal cord was healing nicely. Still swollen from surgery as was expected. Instead of the whole cord looking reddish, at least half of it was the white color it suppose to be. From the middle to outside edge was still red. Again, it was too be expected only being 3 weeks out from surgery. I was told to continue with the tongue trills, ranging from even tone to lows and highs. Absolutely no attempts at singing. I was also told to minimize my time trying to talk over background noises, no yelling, no clearing my throat, to continue to minimize the coughing and sneezing. I had a pain on my left side of my throat. Only thing we could come up with is that the acid reflux at night dried out that area. I sleep on my left side mostly. So maybe the drainage dried that area out, so that my first initial drink of liquids hurt. But I noticed the more I drank, the less pain then no pain there was. Dr. Workman told me I was looking at between 6-8 to a year before I would get my full singing voice back in which I could sing high without having to possibly falsetto it. Dana told me I would be singing by choir day and she would teach me how to not damage my vocal cords and the best way to sing those high notes. I must admit when he said close to a year for my full voice, that was discouraging. For an instant I saw myself not being able to record with the choir when that time come. But for now, I have to be obedient to the authorities and trust God. That is scripture, to obey those above you. So I will obey them because the outcome is much greater than what I see now, both ways. If I am not obedient, I run the risk of scarring then my singing is about over. And if I am obedient, my voice will be even better than before. So as that commercial says, You make the call. lolololol Well gotta go. Just wanted you all to know what was going on. Remember be a mirror for God so people can see the Father through you. Bye now