Saturday, September 12, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Sept 12, 2009

Hi all!
I hope this finds you chipper and in good spirits! Love all of ya that has dropped by. You may not have left any comments but I know you was here. Thank you ! I really appreciate it!
What is happening on the homefront you say? War, war, and more war. Resist the devil and he will flee right? Mean to say, we are on the warfront everyday. The devil attacks us more and more because we are our Father's chosen. He attacks us because we are doing our Father's work, we are love by Him, we find no fault in Him, and we have taken over the devil's job as worshipper in the kingdom. The devil is jealous and seeks to bring us down, to make us seem unimportant in God's eyes, but it will never be. I believe my family is on the front lines. We are anointed to praise God and battle the devil to keep him away from the unsaved until they can be saved, accepting Jesus into their lives. So I know the devil attacks us because he is fearful of God's creation. This is what it means to resist the devil, to battle anything he can throw at us. To defeat his strengths and leave him demoralized!!! As a friend of mine says almost every choir practice and day he sings, "Stomp on the devil's head, uh!"
Well, I have sung quite a bit now. It still sounds funny hearing my voice now. I have some cracking at the top end of my range. Even at the middle and low, my voice sounds as if I am a tenor/baritone at times. When I am able to hit some highs, it sounds sharp. At times my breathing is unsteady and it tells in my voice at times. I gotta tell you though, it is 1000 times better than it was though. There were times I couldn't even make any kind of sound or note. So I will be thankful for the little things. Of course I am highly critical of myself. Each time I sing I expect every note to be perfect, which is a good thing. Expectation is good! But it can be bad in a way as well. It is easy to get down on myself when each note is not perfect up to my expections. I still have to build strength in my vocal cords to withstand singing for any duration and for hitting notes. I can tell also I need more work on my tone. I wish I had a pitchpipe right now so that I could. I will one day soon. Can you tell I am serious about this thing y'all?
Overall am I pleased? Let's see. I will have to answer............Yes, yes I am. Yet I still know I have to be careful. Being not completely healed yet, I can tell. You know at times, I can still feel a little pain, a twinge of pain. I would love to get another scopy of my throat just to keep tabs on my throat. Maybe sometime in the future but not now.
Today was interesting though. When I sung, I sounded and it felt like I was under water almost like I was gargling. Not sure if that is because I am backing off my reflux medicine or what. The doc wants me to start backing off the medications and eventually stop. He says that type of medication is not suppose to be taken for the rest of your life. He says eventually your body will start producing too much mucus to compensate for the muscus stopped by the medicine. It kinda makes sense. The human body is wonderful at adapting to anything. Well gotta listen to this song for tomorrow. C ya and thanks for listening! As always keep your family close and God even closer. I am not leaving anything this time. Just a lil change of pace mind you. lololol Bye now!!!!!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

LIfe after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Sept 5, 2009

Hi All,
Okay Okay!!! Get off my back!! I know it has been a minute since I have been up here blogging! Give a guy a break!!! loloooll Seriously I was just waiting until I had enough to put up here. I will give you a quick rundown. I have been singing with both the male chorus, mass choir, and ensemble. My voice has been a little tired but that is due to the increase in activity I think. When it gets tired, I sound as if I have a lot of mucus in my throat that won't go away. There still are some notes I cannot hit yet though and that frustrates me. I did sing a solo for the male chorus, um, what was that.., oh yeah, God will deliver by the Williams Brothers. I was doing one of the leads. Started out Melvin's lead but switched over to Doug's adlibs. I was so excited that I messed up a bit on a verse(scripture) but straightened out afterwards. I am not naturally singing right now meaning I am thinking about breathing correctly with the proper attack, during the verse and everything trying hard not to put too much pressure on my throat. I am thinking about the words and such. If you think I am a lil fearful of hurting my vocal cords you are right. I try to trust that I am doing my exercises correctly and singing correctly but everytime I feel a twinge or my vocal cords feel dry, that fear comes back. I don't want to have that surgery ever again!!! Most said I did well on the song and the lil squeaks I heard, no one else heard, because there wasn't any. I have seen and heard the dvd. I still have some work to do, lots of it as far as I am concerned. All say my voice has changed for the better. My singing voice isn't the same as before the surgery. I guess I don't know if the voice I have now is God ordained or I am to return to my former voice. I don't know. But God is good and that is a big important but!!! A good but!!!! Well, gotta get ready for the marriage enrichment class. See ya and as always Keep your family and loved ones close and God even closer. And as always here's a little something at the end for you to marinate over. C ya!

Spiritual SoldiersJothany Blackwood
"Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes…" Ephesians 6:11-17
One of the realities we all come to is that sometimes we are in the right fight but with the wrong people. We believe we are really at odds with a co-worker, another church member, or even the person we are in a relationship with. But when we come to the realization that it’s not the individual we struggle against, but the spirit that is controlling them we can shift our approach.
When we focus on it being the person, then we fight them in the flesh where we can never have victory. Because the enemy is masterful at things of the flesh it’s an uneven match. You can’t bring a knife to a gunfight and that’s what you do when you think you’ll give that person back what they are giving to you.
But when you understand that you are dealing with the rulers of darkness that are strategic in their assignments to destroy and kill you, then we have to know what weapons to fight with and protect ourselves. The fact that they rule in darkness indicates that they cannot handle the light. And the light is the Word of God, which is why Psalm 119:105 says “Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.”
When the Scripture acknowledges that there is wickedness in high places that tells you that the enemy does have power. So it would be unwise to believe you can face such a formidable foe on your own strength. Your strength will come from the Word of God and He prepares us strategically for being spiritual soldiers.
God clearly directs us on how to protect ourselves, yet rather than put on the belt of truth, many of us are spiritually sagging. You can’t be prepared to defend yourself from the world when everything about you reflects the world. And as we guard our chest, we are really being protective of what is placed in our hearts for there we find the seat of our conduct and character. And character is simply what you will do when you believe no one is watching.
Then He tells us that our feet should be fitted in Christian cleats so we can hold our ground, despite the elements that seek to make us lose our footing. And that shield of defense against the advances of others is surely made from the promises of God.
The enemy is relentless and if he can defeat us on the battlefield of our minds, our flesh will easily follow. But we must be clear that the fight is not physical, it’s not against the person in front of us; it’s one of spirit and in that we have the confidence that we have already been given victory. But we can delay or forfeit the promised end when we do not rely on God’s strength.
We have all been prepared for these ceaseless battles and as spiritual soldiers, we should be tireless in working towards hearing “'Well done, good and faithful servant!”

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi all!
Well, I sung today. I did a lead and a duet. I was SCARED out of my wits let me tell you! Not wanting to ruin my throat I was babying it as much as I could. That did not work to well all the squeaking I was doing in my high register, so I decided to cut loose on a couple. It came out but it stung a little as well. Made it through "Waitin' on Jesus" then sung "God will deliver" with my bro William. Forgot some words on both songs and my timing was off. I could also hear my tone and pitch was off as well. God got me through those. I got the feeling everyone was expecting me to run but no running today. I had too much to think about keeping my voice together. That is something else to look out concerning the voice after surgery, not wanting to strain. Now I am feeling it now. A lil stinging and I am hoarse some. I don't know now much practice I will do tomorrow. I will probably take it easy. I even talked with one singing expert who advised me not to sing now for about 6 months. They told me how they sung before then , the nodes returned resulting in another surgery. Yet , my vocal therapist and the surgeon said to go ahead. I guess they win out above everyone seeing as though they did the surgery and treatment. Well tomorrow is another day. Hopefully and prayerfully, my voice will get better. I am highly critical of myself. I don't think I did that well, but I will use that to keep myself motivated. I am also going to get the dvd to listen to myself. I don't like that, it makes me sweat lololol. Well, until next time okay? I left you all something at the end as always. Keep your family close and God even closer.

Celebrating The Gift Of The Spirit by Bishop Jim Swilley
But to each one is given the manifestation of the [Holy] Spirit [the evidence, the spiritual illumination of the Spirit] for good and profit. To one is given in and through the [Holy] Spirit [the power to speak] a message of wisdom, and to another [the power to express] a word of knowledge and understanding according to the same [Holy] Spirit; to another [wonder-working] faith by the same [Holy] Spirit, to another the extraordinary powers of healing by the one Spirit; to another the working of miracles, to another prophetic insight (the gift of interpreting the divine will and purpose); to another the ability to discern and distinguish between [the utterances of true] spirits [and false ones], to another various kinds of [unknown] tongues, to another the ability to interpret [such] tongues. All these [gifts, achievements, abilities] are inspired and brought to pass by one and the same [Holy] Spirit, Who apportions to each person individually [exactly] as He chooses. (1 Corinthians 12:7-11, AMP)
The Gifts of the Spirit are:
G – od’s grace… the Gifts or Graces of the Holy Spirit…the “Charismata”…are available to us…
I – nfinite inspiration… the God-breathed unction inspires us to action and to good works…
F – ree flow… the Wind blows where it wills…in Him we live, and in Him we MOVE!...
T – imeless treasures… the Spiritual Gifts reveal the “I AM”…the God Who is in the NOW…
S – upernatural signs... “Not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit, says the Lord”…O – mnipresent opportunity… God’s enabling Spirit can go anywhere…do anything…
F – irst fruits... Oh, what a foretaste of Glory Divine!...the Former and Latter Rain together…
T – ranscendant talents… we accomplish more in the Spirit than we ever could in the flesh…
H – eavenly help… “But you shall receive power after the Holy Spirit has come upon you”…
E – cclesiastical equipping… the Gifts bring life and give effectiveness to the Church…S – pecial services… unique abilities… the Working of Miracles, Gifts of Healing, Gift of Faith…
P – entecostal power… “you shall be My witness…to the uttermost parts of the earth”…
I – nsightful information… Speaking with Tongues, Interpretation of Tongues, Prophecy…
R – eal revelation… the Word of Knowledge, the Word of Wisdom, the Discerning of Spirits…
I – nvaluable instruction… Helper/Teacher…the Spirit of Truth will lead you into all truth…
T – ransformational truth… Man cannot live by bread alone, but by every word that PROCEEDS (present tense) out of the mouth of God. The Gifts of the Spirit connect us with the “proceeding” Word of God.
A loose definition of the Greek word for “word” reveals that the Logos is what God has said, the Rhema is what God is saying. God is speaking IN THE NOW through the Gifts of the Spirit, and those gifts are available to every believer!
The Spiritual Gifts are for you!

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

Hi all,
Well, let's get to the point here, huh? I've had my last appt with my vocal surgeon who advised me keep at the exercises and I am looking at 6 months to a year for my voice to totally be healed, but he said the scope that did of my throat looked very good. I sung tonight in our church concert. I warmed up and everything. I started losing my voice somewhat toward the end of the songs tonight. A lil disappointing but not much and only due to I want my voice to be totally better NOW!!!! lolol Gonna keep at it gonna keep at it. Not much now to write about except keep everyone abreast of all that is going on. I know alot of my problems is due to going houses during the week and smelling and breathing all sorts of smells, most of them not good. Well, tomorrow is another day and I can only pray to our Father that total healing happens. Well, see all of you later and as always, keep your family close and God even closer. As always I leave a little tidbit at the end. C ya!

The First Fruit Of Servanthood Is Love by Dr. Zachary Tims, Jr.

The passage in Galatians 5:22-23 shows us exactly what God expects from his people in how we ought to treat one another, "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance…" Galatians 5:22-23.
The first and foremost Fruit of the Spirit is Love. Love is the rudimentary principle of the New Testament commandment illustrated by Jesus Christ, “Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind….And the second [is] like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.” Matt 27:37-39.
And in John 13:33-34, “A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all [men] know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.”
Could the first fruit of Love be the characterizing factor that sets us apart from the unrighteous? Of course it is. Is there a reason why Jesus directed this statement to His disciples, the first original leaders of the New Testament church? I believe there is a reason.
The disciples were continually jockeying for position to get on Jesus’ highly esteemed good side, but he kindly rebuked this behavior telling them, “But he that is greatest among you shall be your servant.” Matt, 23:11. These disciples were His front-line leaders, Apostles, Elders, Ministers, Deacons, and administration staff.
The first principle of Servanthood is love.
We have to apply the Servanthood factor to how we respond to God’s people. The point is that leaders ought to be the first ones compelled to show a demonstration of the Fruit of the Spirit. They are the examples for the rest of the church. Clearly, servanthood is demonstrated in how we are to love one another with the Jesus kind of love.
Now since the Fruit of the Spirit is one whole concept of Christ-like character, the Apostle Paul encouraged the church in Galatia, to “walk in the Spirit” and then he gave them instructions on how to fulfill that mandate through the Fruit of the Spirit. Love is just the top surface that peels off multiple layers of joy, peace, patience, endurance, kindness, goodness, humility, self-control, and faith.
A gentle answer, a soft spoken word in season, sincere compassion to reach out to the hurting, a listening ear, intercession, and empathy is what shows God’s people the love they deserve from leaders.
That’s why I believe the first fruit of servanthood modeled in the Fruit of the Spirit and exemplified in how we demonstrate our love, “one for another.”

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

August 11, 2009

Hi all! What? I know , I know. I have been laxed at keeping up with my blog. Well, now that you are through fussing at me, hear is the latest. We sung at the Byron Cage concert. It was awesome! Byron and his crew was awesome!!!!! The music was loud so I was conscious of not singing to loud to be heard over the music. I monitored it pretty well I believe. I used the other voices you may say instead of letting pride get in the way to outsing someone. I did my warmup exercises and my warmdown. I had minimal soreness and hoarseness. On the high registers I attempted to mix head and falsetto to save my voice. It seemed to work well. However, I think in between the hot outside temps and the air conditioner in the place, I caught a cold, a virus, I don't know what. All I know is last night I could not sleep because of the coughing and plugged up nose. I went to see my surgeon who basically said everything looked good but to keep up with the exercises the vocal therapist laid out. She showed me a pic of my vocal cords and she described I had a pseudo-node as she called it. Not a real node but one only due to the after surgery swelling. She gave me an exercise that would help reduce it. The surgeon said I have around 6 months to a year before my voice will be fully back which is normal. I kinda feel better that he gave me a time frame. He did not do that before the surgery. Maybe did not want to see any disappointment in my face I guess. The vocal therapist also gave me some tongue and face exercises. This are hard!!!!!!! Just to do them to fatigue makes it feel like someone lassoed my tongue and is dragging me up the street!!!!! lolololl Well that is the latest. I am getting there people, I am getting there. Well, that is the news so I am outty. And as always keep your family close and God even closer. And as always I am leaving a little something at the end. Bye now!

Walk in Your Authority by Dr. Creflo A. Dollar

You don't have to put up with the devil's oppression any longer. God has empowered you with the anointing to remove burdens, destroy yokes and to be an overcomer. The devil is a burden that can easily be driven away by exercising your God-given authority.
God has given you His Word and His Spirit as a defense against the devil's schemes. You've been clothed in the armor of God so "...that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil" (Ephesians 6:11). You have everything needed to defeat the devil whenever he shows up at your door. He will keep showing up because you possess something that he desperately wants-your God-given authority to rule and reign in the earth.
When God created Adam, he gave him dominion and authority over the earth (Genesis 1:26, AMP). However, when Adam rebelled against God, he turned his authority to rule over to the devil. Satan then had control over everything except the throne of God (2 Corinthians 4:4). Since Satan contaminated the ground with sin, God couldn't destroy Adam and make another man from the dust of the earth. Aren't you thankful that He had plan? He came to the earth as a man. Through Jesus' death and resurrection, he defeated Satan and took back our authority to rule (Hebrews 2:9, 14), and we have been restored to our rightful place of authority.
Jesus has all power and authority in heaven and earth (Matthew 28:18). Since we were raised with Him, we have all power and authority as well (Ephesians 2:4-7). Therefore, do not neglect your right to rule and reign in the earth. Every time the enemy tries to attack you, consider it an opportunity to exercise your power over him. You have the authority to declare what is lawful and unlawful in this earth, and to permit or to forbid things on the earth-even death (Matthew 16:18-19, AMP).
I challenge you to begin making demands in Jesus' name. John 14:13-14 says, "And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it." The word ask means "demand." What you demand in Jesus' name (from the Word), He promises He will do. Understand that when you make a demand, you aren't demanding that God do things. Instead, you are demanding that the devil submit to the Word, to loose his hold and to stop his operations against you.
Faith is involved in exercising your spiritual authority. You must base your faith on what the Word says, not on circumstances. When circumstances do not change immediately, some people become discouraged and begin to speak doubt and unbelief. This only gives the devil dominion over their words, which ultimately defeat them. Don't hand over your authority to Satan through your words. Instead, break the power of the devil by walking in your authority!

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Life after vocal cord polyp removal surgery

August 1, 2009

Hi All! Been a minute since I have been back huh? Yeh, I know. Well, since the last time, I have sung quite a bit. We are attempting to get ready for the Byron Cage concert. I am singing watching my breathing and tone, attempting to regain some of my former voice. It is tough. I think I am doing well. The only thing is I don't have someone else to measure against, you know, someone else, another singer who had the same surgery and is attempting to regain their singing voice. I remember reading about Joann Rosario say it took her two years before she was able to record and sing professionally again or at least before she put out an cd. I must admit I am a little disappointed in my voice. It leaves me sometimes and like today, I am a little hoarse even though I keep vocal tension to a minimal. Just hope I am ready when my turn to lead comes into play. I am not rushing it though. Also trying to keep the stress level down. But I have to trust God you know. No other way I can do this without Him. Just wanted everyone to know some of the things you may have to go through should you or if you needed this surgery one day. I pray that God gives you continually excellent vocal health though. Well C ya! And as always there is a little something something at the end. And as always keep your family close and God even closer. Bye

Let Liberty Decide by Darwin Hobbs
As believers, we all have to make a number of conscious decisions; decisions concerning our jobs, families, marriages, God, and concerning our life in general. And although the decisions we are faced with are often at times difficult for us to make, there is something we all can find joy in. Something very few of us believe we even have at our disposal: Liberty.
Believe it or not, we as believers have been granted liberty in the spirit of God to make choices that will effect change in not only our lives, but in the world we live in.
According to Webster's dictionary, the definition of liberty (or freedom) is the "right and power to act, believe, or express oneself in a manner of one's own choosing." Within this definition, we discover that we have rights, power, and yes, we have choices.
As Christians, all the power and rights we have ever needed were transferred to us over 2000 years ago at the cross. The redemption plan literally bought us back from the curse of the law of sin and death, meaning we now have kingdom citizen rights and power.
So what does this mean for you and me today?
This simply means that we have the ability to act, believe, and express ourselves in ways that bring Glory to the Father. However, although we are free and liberated by the blood of Christ, we still must make good choices. I Corinthians 10:23 states that "all things are lawful, but not all things are profitable (or expedient)."
While we reserve the right and power to make our own decisions, within this scripture lies an awesome opportunity to impact the earth with godly decisions. Throughout the course of today or throughout this week, I encourage you to try to become more aware and conscious about the type of decisions that face you.
I know it's tough, but I dare you to make decisions that don't include any self gain or self promotion for yourself this week. Instead, ask yourself...
What would it be like to consider another person over myself?
What would it be like to resist the temptation to gossip and backbite?
What would it be like to become a person of my word for just seven days straight?
It is time for us all to realize that we are not only free and liberated "by" the spirit and sacrifice of Christ, but we also now have the ability to experience liberty "in" Christ every day of our lives. It is time we all took a self-examination of our lives and discover whether we are making decisions that represent a heart that is truly free in Christ...
...or are we simply just making decisions?